In Her Mama's Shoes: A Story About Sex, Lies and One Bitchy Grandmother
In Her Mama's Shoes offers a character examination of a young orphan girl forced to make quick decisions following a rape. When she finds herself pregnant and then trapped in a house where there is no escape, Julia makes choices. All this leads to perilous results, thanks to the evil works of the grand old lady of Findlay, Mena Banks. More
At close to sixteen, Julia Anderson feels the strain of being an orphaned girl in a town where life is governed very much by the rules set by one vicious old woman, Mena Banks. Her Mama has been killed in a horrific way and now, it is a move from one home to another, finding a place she could call her own. However, things are not always what they seem. There are lies told to her, lies about who her Mama is. And time has its way of expressing the most diabolical to her. What follows thereafter is an unfortunate sequence of events which leads Julia into the unsavory fringes of Findlay where she eventually finds out about the dark and painful life her mother led and the terrible secrets she is forced to carry about who she is.
If anything, Julia finds she can't quite fix everything all on her own. There are always consequences for everything and the way she has chosen has led to the most ruthless punishment for her, a purgatory where death awaits in the most chosen and quiet corners.
Contains strong sexual content.
"Looking at the rain pitter patter down into the hole and seeing the water rise where the dirt should have been, I realized how much my mother's death meant to the people she worked for once not so long ago. Two weeks ago my mother was alive and well. A week ago she was always the way I wanted her to be. But three days ago, I found out someone had stuck a knife in her and she died that night in the worse way ever, without me by her side. They said I should not see the way she had died. They said I should not see the blood spurt out and then cake on her. They told me so many things that day but no one said why I could not see my mother that night. When they finally took me to the morgue, I remember seeing her lying down like a white sheet with another thin, white cloth that covered her. She was gone and she looked so dead and so cold."
"I realized that today was just a day when I'd be punished for something I did not do. Just like the way they did to Mama whenever they felt like it. All I felt was the sudden urge to run away, to run some place where I could be free of human bondage and the way people thought about orphans like me. I could tell right there standing in the Pastor's house that I was unwanted, that there was no place in this world for anyone quite like me, a product of something considered most foul and degenerate."
"So many thoughts ran through my mind and all of them telling me I was going to die real soon. I was way past sixteen now, the age they would tell was the one where your hopes always got high and where things were made merry because you were young, beautiful and truly alive! But here I was, a load of flesh filled with a baby and with a life that was sitting on borderline depravity."