A Purposeful Meander
A search for intuitive happiness encapsulated within travels of Southeast Asia. More
The moment came swiftly and unexpectedly, a brief space when life itself was transparent. I didn't know what to make or do with it. I had no roadmap. I had never questioned what living life was because as far as I knew, I was living life. I remember the moment vividly, a lake of fog dissipating in my mind and the world springing to life. The tattered paint of the porch, the warmth of the summer, the rumbling of distant cars in the bustling city. The quietness of the neighborhood giving way to the rustling wind, sweeping through trees and the subtle sound of littered leaves blowing across the street. This was the moment I became aware I had been pursuing goals without question.
One year later, I had finally digested the significance of the moment. My mind was swirling in a dizzying whirlwind of questions. What is it I seek out of life? How could I really live life, whatever it meant? Searching the clandestine network of my mind, I came across a door impossible to open. There was a soft knock from the other side, whispering that the world beyond offered limitless possibilities, if I only were able to unlock and free myself from the security and desires of my world.
I could not and succumbed to the acceptance that I was of the age where I had entered a world of greater responsibility. Rationalizing only led to more questions. Am I working to play? Do I just enjoy life? I proactively sought balance, to live my life while upholding responsibilities. The years passed. The knocking would grow louder.
As we grow older, bounded by self-created responsibilities and the comfort of the known, it becomes increasingly challenging to embark upon radical change; difficult to change one's lifestyle and challenge longstanding beliefs, and more difficult to take risks. However, the puzzle was too great to ignore. Through the happenings of a series of events, I was able to find a key to open the door and begin exploring the world in all its abiding mystery and promise.
In 2006, I set off doing what people said was unrealistic: moving halfway across the Pacific Ocean, living abroad, and traveling more than 10,000 miles through Southeast Asia. The results are spectacular.
This is my journey, shaped by the collective experiences of my travels, of living life and searching for intuitive happiness.