Refuse

Rated 4.56/5 based on 10 reviews
Dean, a 22-year old female-to-male-transsexual, is no LGBT poster boy. Unemployed, depressed, mid-transition, friendless, and still living in the upstairs bedroom of his parents’ house, he can think of little to do but write his memoir. In the third person, he tells the tale of his would-be love affair with his college roommate, Colin, another trans man with a girlfriend and a successful band. More

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About Elliott DeLine

"Though DeLine is only 24, with Refuse and I Know Very Well How I Got My Name, his is already a major contribution to queer literature. Like so many of the classic gay and lesbian novels from the earlier part of the 20th century, these works are sure, years from now, to enjoy wider readership and recognition as pioneering examples of transgender writing." -Kirkus Reviews

Elliott DeLine (born 1988) is an independent transgender writer from Syracuse, NY. He is the author of Refuse, "a witty and provocative debut novel," (Lambda Literary Review) which won a silver medal in the 2011 LGBT Rainbow Awards for Best Transgender/Bisexual Fiction. His work has been featured in several publications, including the Modern Love essay series of The New York Times (2011) and The Collection: Short Fiction from the Transgender Vanguard, winner of a 2012 Lambda Literary Award for Best Transgender Fiction. He is a regular blogger for Original Plumbing, the premier FTM magazine, and as of August 2013, the managing editor of Trans-Genre.net. Elliott's newest book, I Know Very Well How I Got My Name, was praised by Kirkus Reviews as "one of the most well-written, nuanced transgender origin stories on the market today...a novella that confirms his impressive range and talent."

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Review by: Quiet Riot Girl on Nov. 29, 2011 :
Titles are hard and Refuse is a brilliant title!

I was completely immersed in the life of the lead character from the start of the story. The prose reminded me of Quentin Crisp, particularly the searing honesty and grim humour.

Despite the dark theme of a turbulent coming of age, there were also some laugh out loud moments of funniness.

My favourite scene - without giving too much away - was the trans support group and the appearance by the elusive figure of 'Hunter'.

A brilliant debut. More please!
(reviewed the day of purchase)

Review by: Alex Marshall on Oct. 01, 2011 :
I loved this book. It's wonderful. I don't really have anything else to say about it, but I would definitely recommend it to ftms, non-binaries, loners, and anyone who wants to know more about an ftm perspective.
Heartbreaking, beautiful and relatable. What else could you want in a book?
(reviewed long after purchase)

Review by: skcup on Sep. 28, 2011 :
I read this book because I wanted to find an ftm narrative that expressed some of my experience (feeling out of place in many ftm spaces, identifying as gay ftm) but, unfortunately, I would not recommend this story. It was sort of painful to read - the author's sadness was palpable but the stereotyped characters and maudlin/melodramatic plot twists were just too over the top for me. I think it worth noting the commitment required to finish a novel of any quality but I hope maturity and perspective (and perhaps a good dose of healing and self-love) will really improve this writer's ability and style.
(reviewed long after purchase)

Review by: Nate Russell on Sep. 15, 2011 :
This was a great read. It was insightful and funny as well as thought provoking and sad. It is not just another trans memoir, it is a truly engaging story, a wonderful addition to the trans library. Actually, it has a broader appeal than that, it is a worthy addition to any library!
(reviewed within a month of purchase)

Review by: Blake Haley on Aug. 26, 2011 : (no rating)
Really related to this story. My favorite part was probably the amount of peter pan references. It was very difficult to put down, even though I was reading it during work, so I had to put it down frequently :(
I loved it and recommended it to all of my friends.
(reviewed within a month of purchase)

Review by: Lissa on Aug. 13, 2011 :
I knew by the end of the first page that I was going to fall in love with this story. After about an hour of reading I'd started to get a headache from staring at the computer screen, but I just kept going until I was through. The characters continued to surprise me until the end as I smiled, laughed, and cried along with Dean's experiences. Through the tragedy, anger, and cynicism, DeLine gives us a very real story about love, growth, and redemption for ourselves and others. Have a feeling that I will (print it out and) read it again!
(reviewed the day of purchase)

Review by: igor repute on Aug. 09, 2011 :
great
(reviewed within a week of purchase)

Review by: Sam Cathartes on Aug. 07, 2011 :
A beautiful book. I wish I could write a more poetic review to try and give it justice, but the best I can say is, it really helped me as a trans-man still figuring myself out, and is compelling, thought-provoking, and entertaining as well. A taste of chaotic truth, and good medicine.
(reviewed within a week of purchase)

Review by: D Ren on May 02, 2011 :
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(reviewed the day of purchase)

Review by: Rusty Shackleford on May 01, 2011 :
This is one of the few books I return to again and again. Genius.
(reviewed the day of purchase)

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