For my father: I hope you have found peace.

Acknowledgements

I am very grateful to many people for their help in getting this book ready for publication. Natanja Greeff for her meticulous attention to detail, excellent editorial advice and help with copy-editing, Kristen Broberg for her suggestions, enthusiasm and encouragement from the first draft and Benjamin Bruyns and David Le Roux for their interest and input. Many thanks must go to the Writers Workshop for their fantastic services and the invaluable help received from Helena Drysdale that went above and beyond my highest expectations.

I am so grateful to my family for tirelessly reading through every draft and willingly giving their honest opinions and advice. Thank you for allowing me to represent you and our shared history in this way. And lastly, thank you to my amazing husband. You saw who I really was. It was your unconditional love that healed me and inspired me to write this book.