From Under My Blanket

I'm a survivor of many beatings and rapes under knives and guns. I witnessed the violent beating, rape and murder of two nine year old card playing hillbilly girls at the hands of the same man who beat and raped me the day before. I have children by some of these rapist, abusive violent husbands and narcissist, but were stolen. I'm not in the #ME TOO movement, I'm in the #I SURVIVED movement.

Your secret was safe with many of your victims and me for many years because we never told, but I'm a bone collector bring it on. Twenty years down the road you won't even notice that I escaped and flew away. Women are starting to have a voice these days and we're showing each other how to deal with, survive, recover, and leave a narcissistic abusive person. Leave before your sanity leaves!

Alcohol and drugs are as in the last days of our lives or even the earth's last days of existence, there will always be that "Last Call" for your vises before total destruction. Sodom and Gomorrah has nothing on today's alcohol and drug related society. People literally explode from alcoholism, either their liver, stomach or some other vital organs fail or bloat.

Stories no one has told about women in prisons and jails who I know personally. What these women went through on the outside world is shocking. What they end doing is even more shocking. We're criminals, drug dealers, prostitutes, thieves, and drug addicts thrown in together who help each other survive on the outside and inside behind bars. The truth about women and sexual relations behind bars.

I was forced to be a female cock fighter by my violent, abusive husband for fourteen years, but the attention and money was good. I was winning trophies and taking country boy's money in the biggest arenas in three states. Everyone in every arena or barn scratch fights were betting on me because they knew I was being backed and trained by three of the best cock fighters in three states.

Exotic strip dancing is not glamorous, it's one of the most dangerous, horrifying at times, underpaid, and unappreciated professions. Many exotic strip dancers paid a life savings for dancing lessons, karate, pole dancing, acrobatics, and outfits just to break even on most nights. Know how many people they pay before even leaving for the night?