This book resonated with me because like the main character, Stacey, I have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ but also struggle with my own personal demons--being bipolar. I understood the mental torment, a life of secrets, the pain of uncertainty in relationships with even friends, the pain of making poor choices and suffering the consequences, the mental confusion of memories.
The book contains raw, stark reality right from the beginning. The author doesn't disguise the agony in Stacey's mind by painting pretty words. She tells the story truthfully without apologies. I'm not certain all the intimate details were necessary to convey the message she was sharing. For me, the struggle inside her mind as she strove to come to some type of peace within herself was more important than all the outside events, even the events that ultimately led to her mental imbalance.
What I found most valuable was the glimpse of the inner turmoil, how she suffered, stumbled through recovery, and how healing took time and wasn't as smooth as the reader would have liked it to be. In addition to this, her husband/pastor wasn't perfect either, but was willing to stand by his wife of 20 years helping her when he was able, and going through some shifts in his attitude as well.
I understand how difficult it is for a sufferer to recognize when their mental grasp on life is distorted and their perceptions of life events are skewed. From personal experience, I know how hard it is to come to the point where we admit we need help from an outside source---that we can't heal ourselves. I also realize that the recovery process is not perfect. There are a lot of obstacles to overcome. Personality conflicts, toxic relationships, well-meaning acquaintances, co-workers, the church family and our own blood families all muddy the waters making recovery a difficult, time-consuming process. I so identified with the main character when people, events, and even she herself got into the way of her recovery.
I would love to see this work edited to remove the mechanical barriers of improper grammar and punctuation, unclear expressions, and tightening up of events so that this book would appeal to a greater number of readers. This story could be such a great tool in aiding others in their recovery.
(reviewed 4 months after purchase)