Victim of Shame: Why me, God?

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In a world of lightning fast communication, one mistake can transcend time; destroy lives….or save your soul. Deception, resentment, madness, and vengeance -- Ryan Campbell may be famous, but his life is a living hell. More

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Language: English
ISBN: 9781452343037
About Mian Mohsin Zia

"Mian Mohsin Zia deserves a standing ovation." -- Michael John Wolfe, Hollywood Actor, USA.

"Mian Mohsin Zia is the brightest light on Pakistan's new literary horizon." -- Burl Barer, Edgar Award winner and New York Times best-selling author, USA.

"Mian Mohsin Zia is the best when it comes to writing and marketing." -- Robynn Lin Fredericks, American Actress and Producer.

“Mian Mohsin Zia is one of my favorite authors and he is a genius when it comes to marketing.” -- Samantha Heer, American Actress.

"Mian Mohsin Zia is a genuinely great writer for the 21st Century." -- Caroline Oakes, British Film, TV and Theatre Actress.

"I always look forward to reading Mian Mohsin Zia's highly prolific work." -- Howard Lapides, TV and Motion Picture Producer, USA.

"Mian Mohsin Zia is an amazing author and marketer." -- Sara Barrett, American Actress.

"Mian Mohsin Zia is a talented marketer and an international author to watch out for." -- Jon Mack, Hollywood Actress & Singer.

"Mian Mohsin Zia is such an amazing author and a great marketer in this business. Be sure to check out his work." -- Kayla Perkins, Hollywood Actress & Model.


Mian Mohsin Zia is the only Pakistani Author and Marketing Specialist:
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✓ His merchandise well received by American Superstar as big as "Forbes Riley"
✓ Won Awards from USA
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✓ Received international recommendations
✓ Americans labeled him as “King of International Marketing”
✓ American Publishing House, Wild Blue Press signed him for a 3 book deal
✓ Set new trends worldwide in novel writing and marketing
✓ One of his books recommended to be a Hollywood movie
✓ One of his books translated into Russian language

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Review by: jenny Gouws on Sep. 05, 2017 :
I had the honour of chatting with Mian, a few months ago. I apologise for the long lapse in time from then to this review! I found him a caring, considerate and "down to earth"/ humble person, But with a very clear idea of where and what he wants to achieve, both in his novels and in his life.
"Victim of Shame" encapsulates what a lot of us "human folk" deal with on a day to day basis - obviously in various degrees. For me, there was a connective thread throughout this book - one that says no matter our race, our ethnicity, our culture, our religion, our sex - We all have or might experience tragedy in life, and we have choices to make regarding how we choose to respond; and whether we choose to move forward, to allow the pain to teach us and learn something from the experience OR choose to wallow in it and allow anger, bitterness and stronger emotions of hatred etc. build, until we can't see our paths forward. Please understand me clearly here, this is a generalisation of pain - NO-ONE can ever presume to know another's suffering & depth of pain without walking in their shoes. For me, there was also a connection with the beginning of Ryan's suffering - his infertility, inability to create life ( in a way a death) which escalated his discontent and eventual hatred and disdain and then the antithesis at the end of his life, forgiveness, acceptance and a peace - a coming full circle moment.
Mian's style of writing "threw" me a bit initially. It is not your usual "novel" style of writing. His style is factual, almost note like, which made it a tad harder for me, to connect to the characters initially. Once I had gotten past that and picked up on the message I received from the book - I thoroughly enjoyed it. Thank you!
(reviewed 9 months after purchase)

Review by: Lorraine Price on Oct. 25, 2016 :
How can you describe the emotions that touch your heart and reach to the core of your very being? "Victim of Shame" is not what it seems. In the prologue, the question is repeated, "Why me, God?" There are several examples given of horrible wrongdoing to innocent people who in response ask this question. Mian has shown that Karma really does exist.

The author points out that everyone in the world regardless of religion, nation, society, race, or ethnicity feels the same anguish and grieves the same pain.

Ryan Campbell is a writer for a newspaper. His world comes crashing down and is changed forever in a split second when he is involved in an automobile accident. While in the hospital, he becomes friends with his nurse and learns some valuable lessons.

She shares these words of wisdom with him. "Right is wrong, and wrong is right. It's all in your mind. When it is a matter of right and wrong, one can pass through all barriers."

“It takes a lifetime to learn all of life’s lessons and find certain answers. That is something you have to learn by experience. Some things in life are better understood when we learn them ourselves. Every person has their own way of learning and interpreting things."

The theme of religion throughout this book raises many questions as the author points them out. Questions that are difficult to hear, as well as difficult to answer.

In this book, he has a special lesson to share with his readers and several messages of importance, wisdom, and experiences to learn. For example, There is the healing power of forgiveness as well as the destructive power of vengeance.

I not only enjoyed the story, I also learned many new things as I read it. I cried and felt the same pain as I too, often ask,"Why me, God?" If you have ever reacted to a situation in a similar manner, then I implore you to pick up this book today.
(reviewed 2 days after purchase)

Review by: H. E. Olsen on May 29, 2016 :
I just finished "Victim of Shame' and I'm kind-of speechless. I love a book that touches deeply and unfolds answers to hard questions throughout the story. I can relate to both main characters in my own way. This book had my eyes watering several times and it was hard to stop reading. This story is now on my favorite book list, thank you Author Mian Mohsin Zia. ~Author H.E. Olsen
(reviewed the day of purchase)

Review by: Jorja Davis on April 25, 2013 :
Zia, Mohsin Mian. Victim of Shame: Why Me, God? Smashwords. November 2, 2010. Paperback ISBN: 145-3-8659-50 EAN-13: 978-1-45386595-8. 180 pages. List price: $15.00 Digital ASIN: B004A8ZVRU. 367 KB. $6.00

Review Title: One Heartbeat - One Humanity - One Dream: A World of Peace

Genre: Suspense, Thriller

Ryan, a victim. Ryan, ashamed. Ryan, an impotent misogynist. Ryan shamed. Ryan, an accidental pornographer. Ryan mortified. Ryan, a champion of women’s rights. Ryan chagrined. Ryan, an intentional journalist. Why me, God? Why me?

Sarah, an orphan. Sarah, fiancé to a self-centered Muslim. Sarah dishonored. Sarah, a victim. Sarah degraded. Sarah, a psychotic break. Sarah ruined. Why me, God? Why me?

Maria, a Christian widow raising an Islamic son. Maria weakened. Maria’s Islamic son, killed in a terrorist attack. Maria broken. Maria, a convert to real Islam. Maria healed. Maria, a healer. Try me, God! Try me!

“No matter which religion, nation, society, race, or ethnicity we belong to, we all have one thing in common. At some point in each of our lives, we all ask the question ‘Why me, God?’”

Zia’s Kafka-esque third novel is a plea for all humanity to live in peace and integrity. Though written in English, it carries within the rhythm of all the languages of Pakistan: Urdu, Punjabi, Pashto, Sindhi, and Blochi. The book is a flash back written from a first person point of view and is somewhat didactic. The plot meets Zia’s goal of trying to “unmask and unveil the frailties in every society.”

Rating: 4.5 stars

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I received a complimentary copy of this book from the author for my unbiased review.

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(reviewed 7 months after purchase)

Review by: Lorraine Carey on March 31, 2013 :
Victim of Shame delivers its readers a riveting adventure that you just can’t put down! Ryan Campbell is a man on a collision course with a fate which rocked his world. The story is told from his journal which makes it all so real. He was no match to go up against his Karmic Journey. Ryan will encounter so much mysterious bad luck in his lifetime; and one big mistake will turn out deadly. Seems he is a prisoner in a world that is against him. His involvement with women becomes tragic and is the root of his acquired vengeance. He inherits a great distaste for women. Ironically he befriends a woman who turns out to be his spiritual guide and tries to save him by leading him to find redemption. But is he really saved? Mian Moshin Zia is a master at motivating his readers and evoking emotion. He serves up a powerful spiritual message throughout the story. There is a startling message at the end that is not to be missed as it will leave an impact on every reader.
(reviewed 2 days after purchase)

Review by: Offbeat Vagabond on Nov. 29, 2012 :
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Victim of Shame is a tragic story about a man named Ryan Campbell. Ryan has done something that has ruined the life of another - his wife Sarah. Something horrible happened in his life and that one accident changed him for the worst. He writes about women's rights, but it is a way to relieve his overwhelming guilt. He is trying to redeem himself for what he has done, but it seems someone might do that for him.

I enjoyed this read a lot. I don't like this more than Once though. While it does have a few similarities, I found that world to be a bit more believable. Our main character Ryan drove me nuts. He was good at first, but he was a downright jerk most of this book. His attitude sometimes was just awful and for no particular reason. Take his job hunting for example. He “resigned” from his job and needed a new one soon or else he would be homeless. When he does get the call, his reaction was just so insipid and sort of clipped with his answers. He didn't care that he not only got a job, but a new apartment. But just the day before he was anxious about the new job and always running to the phone when it rang. Where did the attitude come from? Why isn't he happy that his life is getting better? Just doesn't make any sense.

Kim was Ryan's fiancee who treated him like crap after his accident. This was something I also thought was so weird. They were going to get married in a couple of days and his accident instantly switches her b**** mode on. Her and her new fiancee force Ryan out of work and leave him behind. How can someone go so soulless in less than a week? Then again, I think Zia did that on purpose to show how easy it is to go over the edge. But one character I did love was Maria. She was so full of wisdom and spirit. She instantly put a smile on my face. I really liked Sarah as well. I wish we got more of her specifically before the incident.

The story was very emotional and heavy. Ryan suffers from the accident he had. He is now impotent and can't have children. His fiancee pretty much kicks him aside and insults him and his manhood. Ryan no can't trust women. In fact, he hates them. His hate grows and grows unless he is talking to Maria. His hate gets him to do something truly despicable. He humiliates Sarah and she might be beyond repair. Ryan is trying desperately to get rid of his guilt and to change his views.

Now I do have complaints about this book. As I said before, the attitudes were just awful. Another thing was that the book does get a tad bit preachy specifically about religions. There were times when religion was thrown and it didn't seem to fit. For instance, Maria approaches Ryan at his new job about covering a story about a girl who has been mutilated. Ryan asked her why she is helping when the girl is Christian and she is Muslim. How is that a relevant question? Maria isn't a heartless woman. Why would did he have to ask that? Then there was how Ryan was talking about how boisterous Sarah was before they were together, But he never took the time out to get to know her before everything happened. He was very rude towards her, so that didn't make sense. Then there was what had happened after the accident. Ryan never asks about the other people that were in the accident as well. Are they okay? Who were they? I have no idea and I would have liked to have known that.

Overall, I did enjoy this book a lot. It was very human, but it had its moments where it straddled the line of being angry and being downright soulless. Ryan was a hard character to like and a hard character to hate. But as I said, he was very human. I was very invested in this story. The journey was amazing. It was full of sadness, anger, guilt, redemption, and forgiveness. This is a read that will stick with me especially the end. The book was beautifully written and I loved the scene at the end between Ryan and Sarah. I am very happy I read this. I definitely recommend it.
(reviewed 10 days after purchase)

Review by: Melissa Roger on Sep. 18, 2012 :
Victim of Shame – Highly Recommended

Mian shines in a dark story. Writing fiction and making it so real is the work of a genius. Mian’s style is authentic and commendable.

How well each part of the story is linked demonstrates the true talent of the author. I loved Ryan, Maria, Sarah and Johnny as they told their story. The book kept me in suspense till the end. It entertains and has a great message for humanity. "Victim of Shame" is a thought provoking novel and it should be widely read.
(reviewed the day of purchase)

Review by: Lisa Ryan on Sep. 13, 2012 :
This story was a lot darker than I usually like. There were some parts that I liked - Ryan Campbell had a lot of personal struggles to go through after a devastating accident and break-up of his engagement. However, I didn't think the main outcome of the accident (infertility) was realistic, nor was his fiance's reaction to his diagnosis. I prefer reading more positive stories so it just wasn't my cup of tea.
(reviewed 22 days after purchase)

Review by: Vered Ehsani on Aug. 07, 2012 :
Ryan Campbell champions women’s rights even as he hides a secret: after being humiliated and rejected by his fiancée, Ryan doesn’t like women at this point in his life. Told through a series of diary entries, the reader watches as Ryan learns the power of hate and forgiveness.

Mian Mohsin Zia has tried to capture a number of important themes in this book, including redemption, weaving them together through this unique story. I enjoyed watching the main character’s transformation. The writing style was a bit heavy on ‘telling’ rather than ‘showing’ scenes and emotions, and that slowed the flow down for me.
(reviewed 8 days after purchase)

Review by: Joanne Augello on Jan. 26, 2011 :
Sorry forgot to click the stars for the review but a job nicely done.
(reviewed 3 days after purchase)

Review by: Joanne Augello on Jan. 26, 2011 : (no rating)
How she was ready to let what she read in his log and wait for him so she could kill him and watched. It kept me in supense. It was like he knew what was going to happen before it happen. Some stuff you thought he was a caring person then he changes and you see stuff that he does, but what I read kept me in supense and I did enjoy it. Beautiful title and cover.. Nice job well done.
(reviewed 3 days after purchase)

Review by: Renee Nelson on Dec. 13, 2010 :
VICTIM OF SHAME is not an easy read...nor a light one. Ryan Cambell is human...sometimes too human. This has you swinging between liking him and then hating him for his stupidity and all too human mistakes. His poor choices often leads you to reflect on your own bad decisions. The novel is an exceptional reflection of the struggles everyone faces and the corresponding lapses in faith that can develop.

You are on an emotional rollercoaster while reading this book. There were some disconnect moments for me, and perhaps it was the way Mian constructed his world. I found myself putting the setting in NYC, which then had me finding some reactions unbelievable for that setting and more like what you'd find in a small town. Looking back, I realize that Mian created his city so that the reader was able to immediately identify it with a city near and dear to themselves...that is a true talent.

Another disconnect was that sometimes the language was too formal...much what you hear when someone talks who's native language isn't American English. Again, this could be the ego-centricity that had me putting the setting here in America where we speak very informally and with much more sometimes the ability to make the setting become the readers own could have a little drawback.

At some points the story was a little too preachy. It occasionally turned me off to the point that I would have to put it down for a couple days before picking up the tale again. Even thought the message was one of acceptance of all religions, there were times that one religion in particular was presented as superior - which was also a slight turn off. However, having read the entire book, all I can say is don't let the foray into too much religion stop you from reading the entire work. The message and spiritual journey overall is worth the read.

PS - Mian - Ryan's words to Sarah were beautiful and will stay with me a long time...well written!
(reviewed 31 days after purchase)

Review by: Burl Barer on Dec. 03, 2010 :
My admiration for the literary work of this author is no secret. A quote of praise from me graces the front cover of VICTIM OF SHAME, and for good reason. There are few authors who have his ability to tap universal emotions, and present them in a style that feels absolutely authentic. When reading VICTIM OF SHAME, it is as if reading a secret diary, hearing a deathbed confession, or looking into the soul of someone as flawed, tragic and gloriously human as ourselves. To reveal detail of plot and characters would rob you of the great pleasure of experiencing this book fresh, and without preconceptions. Simply put, the main character, Ryan, is a champion of women's rights who, in his heart of hearts, despises women. Every victory for the cause of gender equality is a defeat of his own rancor. He is a man in the midst of the most important struggle of all -- the battle between self and soul.

I will, however, share some comments regarding the style of Mian's writing. It is perhaps because he is not only an author, but a teacher of English and English composition, that he knows how to write as if not a professional writer. The story , told first person in almost a "journal" style, contains just enough run on sentences and grammatical gaffes to convince us that we are indeed reading someone's unpolished memoirs. There is a power within this approach. much as the nicks and cuts found in real leather are proof of its authenticity. The narrator may provide too many examples, but people, desperate to make sure you understand, do exactly that. This is literary accuracy, as an actor nails a character perfectly, Mian knows how to write as if writing were the farthest thing from his mind -- only sharing the story from his heart. Yet, the story is fiction. This is all design, artifice, and by making this artifice remarkably realistic, Mian demonstrates his abilities to involve us in the lives of characters we perceive as real.

There is something called "The Illusion of Exceptionalness" -- that is when people assume that what they are experiencing in their lives -- pain, anguish, despair -- are exceptions. They mistakenly assume that others cannot know their experience. Somehow, what they are enduring is an exception. It isn't.

If there is a message to Mian's book it may or may not be the one he hammers relentlessly in his epilogue -- that too is device. Few books engage the reader in the manner of VICTIM OF SHAME, and even fewer can stimulate so much discussion. I urge you to buy this book, read this book, enjoy this book, and share it with others. It is a book capable of triggering communication and understanding, not only between people, but between ourselves and our own self-image.
(reviewed the day of purchase)

Review by: Jamie Martin on Nov. 21, 2010 :
Reading the book, Victim of Shame: Why me, God? Was a great read. It makes you wonder what a person has went through to become a victim of shame. The poems go wonderfully with the story and help you to understand the story telling. The writing flows beautifully and you are lost in the world of the characters. The pictures for the book make you want to read more about the story, as well.

I found Ryan, Maria, Sarah, and even Johnny delightful characters and thoroughly enjoyed their company as they told their story. Victim of Shame makes you think about the actions that you make and for the reasons that you make them. Some things that you do affect others even when you don’t know it.
(reviewed 7 days after purchase)

Review by: Tahlia Newland on Nov. 16, 2010 :
This is a moving and thought provoking novel with a clear message for humanity. I hope that it becomes widely read especially in Christian and Moslem circles.

Im going to give it an M award.(M for meaningful, moving, memorable etc ).
(reviewed 8 days after purchase)

Review by: Julie Achterhoff on Nov. 06, 2010 :
First of all, this is a phenomenal book. I believe it has the ability to open the eyes of people in a big way. Ryan Campbell is the protagonist, whose life is changed in an instant. He loses the love of his life because of this. How he reacts to his misfortune drives the book forward. Mian has a gift at looking at the world in a very special and truthful way. He has created characters who absolutely come to life on the page. The storyline is unique and highly interesting, as well. There is a sense of tension that culminates in Ryan making the biggest mistake of his life. He then does his utmost to rectify his mistake by becoming a champion for women, especially those who have been mistreated in some way, even though, because of his past experience, he has come to hate women.

Mian’s style of writing is really beautiful. He is able to balance dialogue, story, and background with style and grace. One has the feeling that they are caught up in the story from the very beginning. This book also teaches the reader about the ideation of the Christian and Muslim faiths without being preachy. I learned many things about Muslims that I didn’t know before, such as their appreciation and respect for all other religions. I think this would be a good book for anyone who enjoys a solid good book. I will be giving it five stars on amazon and goodreads, as well as any other place that takes book reviews.
(reviewed the day of purchase)

Review by: Micheal Williams on Nov. 05, 2010 :
Awesome Read.
I have not read such a great book for a while. Such books are required to open the eyes of the world. America needs it. The world needs it. Highly recommended.
Thanks MIAN for writing such a masterpiece. I look forward to read your next release.
(reviewed the day of purchase)

Review by: Ellen DuBois on Nov. 05, 2010 :
I just finished reading Mian Mohsin Zia's "Victim of Shame" and was very moved by it. There are many layers to this book: character's are woven into each other's lives; themes of love, honesty, dishonesty, shame, guilt, redemption, separateness & oneness- were written with much thought and creativity. These elements and more play a part, along with vivid characters, in creating a thought provoking, deep, intruiging and entertaining new novel. "Victim of Shame" was a pleasure to read, evoked many emotions and yes... left me thinking.
(reviewed the day of purchase)

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