Beg Me

Rated 4.38/5 based on 21 reviews
Two years after a brutal tragedy, Tania is taking her life and her fantasies back. All of them.
Drake Bennett has wanted Tania for years. Wanted her, watched her, knowing he'd never have her. Now he has a chance, but that chance comes with some strings attached. There's also a good possibility he'll get his heart broken.

Warning: This book involves light bondage play, rape fantasy & role play More

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Language: English
ISBN: 9781452497099
About Shiloh Walker

Shiloh Walker has been writing since she was a kid. She fell in love with vampires with the book Bunnicula and has worked her way up to the more...ah...serious works of fiction. She loves reading and writing anything paranormal, anything fantasy, and nearly every kind of romance. Once upon a time she worked as a nurse, but now she writes full time and lives with her family in the Midwest. She writes paranormal and contemporary romance, as well as romantic suspense.

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Review by: Melanie Simmons on April 19, 2013 :
I really enjoyed this book. It is a shorter book, kind of a novella. For the length, this book will take you on a wild ride. It is darker than most of the books Ms. Walker takes. I think it would be a great for someone who is wanting to try something darker, but hasn't ventured into the more dark erotica yet.
(reviewed 3 years after purchase)

Review by: MDV Bookreviewer on Feb. 26, 2012 :
Ever since Ms. Walker announced on Twitter that she had an upcoming contemporary erotic romance release titled “Beg Me” and that she was going to release it on Smashwords, I have been on tenterhooks so to say, awaiting eagerly for its release. One reason being that I love books by Ms. Walker as her titles ALWAYS deliver what they promise and also because regardless of the fact that I love all sorts of romances, contemporary romance is the genre I prefer above everything else. And so onto my review I go, of this very different title by Ms. Walker, which I couldn’t put down since I loaded it onto my Kindle around 2 hours back.

Tania Sinclair is a woman who is haunted by the death of her husband Kyle Sinclair, and 3 years on what devastates her more than anything else is the fact that Kyle’s identical twin brother Kent had ruined all of the good memories that she had stocked up on her beloved husband who had embraced the rough and kinky side of her that craves for the not your usual type of sex, but rather role playing of a bit more kinkier variety. It doesn’t help matters when her ex-mother-in-law Gail Sinclair blames her for the deaths of not one but two of her sons, something Tania would much rather prefer feeling than the emptiness that she had been living with since that fateful night two years back.

Sick and tired of being unable to enjoy what she wants to enjoy, Tania turns to the one man who she knows she can trust enough to deliver on all counts. Drake Bennett, Kyle’s best friend since childhood, someone who had come to mean a lot to Tania as well all through the years. Though Kyle nor Tania has a clue, Drake had fallen in love with his best friend’s girl when they had just been dating and Drake knows that his heart and soul would belong to Tania though he knows that she is far from getting over that nightmarish night that had put those deep shadows in her eyes.

When Tania proposes that Drake ease her back into the world of sensual delights and give her back the one thing that she craves more than anything else, Drake who can never say no to the woman he loves gives in, knowing that if all Tania wants from him is just sex of the rough and kinky variety that she sometimes craves, his heart would just break into pieces when he would have to walk away from it all. But as Tania learns from Drake’s first touch itself, the feelings that he invokes even with a graze of his fingers on her skin creates total havoc on her senses and the answering need that she sees deep within Drake’s eyes acts as the most soothing healing balm of all on her tattered heart and soul.

As the title itself is testament enough, this story contains material that would prove offensive to certain readers. Role playing which includes playing out of rape fantasies take place within this story and so if you are the type of person who does not like such content in your erotica then this book is not for you.

Apart from this book being one of the most different books that I have read to date, I liked the “forbidden love” aspect of the story as in Drake loving and lusting after the wife of his best friend, but being honorable enough never to cross that line when Kyle had been around. And even when the playing field had evened out, Drake had bided his time until Tania had been the one to approach him and initiate things to take their platonic relationship to the next level. I absolutely loved Drake as the hero because even with all the intensely wicked role playing that was going on, he still managed to show his tenderness and love for Tania through his actions. The way Drake breaks down during the last couple of scenes just damn near broke my heart, and made me love him even more in the end.Though I enjoyed reading this highly unusual romance, I do wish that Ms. Walker had included some scenes of “normal” or rather tender love scenes between Drake and Tania that would have balanced out the story in the end.

I would recommend this for readers who can withstand their erotica with more than the usual rough and kinky sex, and for those who are fans of Ms. Walker’s contemporary erotic romances.

Kudos to Ms. Walker for pulling it off with a story such as this one, and I can’t help but wish for more contemporaries from her, which I keep bugging her about now and then on Twitter.

(reviewed 2 years after purchase)

Review by: Artemis on May 03, 2011 :
Ms. Walker has an explicit warning on this book. If you are uncomfortable with any of that, do not read this book. 'Nuff said.

The relationship between Tania and Drake is a trusting, loving one. And that is what just she needs to overcome her fear and take back her life. A year after her husband dies, his twin brother brutally attacks Tania. Now two years later, Tania refuses to let what happened destroy her life and asks Drake to help her overcome her fear. Drake has secretly loved Tania for years and can refuse her nothing. He is hesitant and doesn't want to hurt Tania, but wants to help her. On their way to recovery, Drake and Tania make a startling discovery.
(reviewed 6 months after purchase)

Review by: Tammy Curtis on April 17, 2011 : (no rating)
Beg Me tackles a difficult subject with both heart and emotional punch. The fantasy "rape" theme between consenting, deeply committed partners may go farther than many readers are comfortable with, but the author does a spectacular job communicating her characters' needs. Kudos to Shiloh Walker on another job well done.
(reviewed 22 days after purchase)

Review by: Mickey McCall on Feb. 08, 2011 :
Beg Me is a strangely compelling novella considering its predominant theme, no pun intended. Shiloh Walker is an expert at writing about the deepest and sometimes darkest emotions, and making them seem somehow acceptable. In her newest novella, she doesn't pull any punches, taking her readers to a whole new level of emotional extreme and angst, focusing on her characters' greatest desires and fears. In Tania we are able to experience both the good and the bad of getting what we wish for.

Drake and Tania are not the typical hero and heroine, yet they are still heroic in their appeal and likability. Without giving away the ending of the story, which is quite a surprise, there are a number of factors that contribute to their need to fight for each other. As always with Ms. Walker's works, Beg Me, is an extremely sensual novel, of course with a few tastefully graphic love scenes. There is so much included in this “novella” it seems like a much longer story: it is truly deeper than quite a few novels I have read in some time, and definitely better.

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(reviewed 71 days after purchase)

Review by: Mikaela Lind on Jan. 28, 2011 :
I have started this review twice. Why? Because I am having trouble finding words describing the book, yet I feel I cannot skip this review.
This is a dark book, filled with twisted memories. Yet at the same time, it feels hopeful. If there is a theme in this book to trust the world again.
Shiloh Walker is a talented author, that manage to make each word, every sentence count. That combined with the tension between Drake and Tania created a read that I couldn’t put down.
The plot isn’t the important part. No, the important part are the relationship between the characters. Both of them struggle, Tania with her past. Drake struggles with his feelings for her, the anger he feels against the thought of her getting hurt
(reviewed 17 days after purchase)

Review by: brenda burke on Jan. 26, 2011 :
i thought it was a really good read love shiloh walker's books
(reviewed 22 days after purchase)

Review by: JML on Jan. 23, 2011 :
Love Shiloh Walker's writing. It was emotional but, I thought the end with Tania and Drake was a little over the top which I didn't enjoy as much. Overall I loved the book.
(reviewed 22 days after purchase)

Review by: Danisha Wade on Jan. 23, 2011 :
Loved this book great story couldn't put it down. Emotional but really hot sex scenes.
(reviewed 21 days after purchase)

Review by: Theresa M on Jan. 15, 2011 :
Loved this book! Emotional and sexy.
(reviewed 49 days after purchase)

Review by: Jessica Janean on Jan. 13, 2011 :
I really liked that this book had a good combination of real emotions mixed with the sex scenes. A lot of erotic literature tends to be unbelievable when it comes to the outcome of a couple making a go of a permanent relationship. This book balanced out well, making it feel like something that could actually happen in real life. It was also a very enjoyable read, it's one that I will read more than once.
(reviewed 25 days after purchase)

Review by: Michelle Clover Hill Book Reviews on Dec. 29, 2010 :
I agree with some of Bea's comments on her review. Shiloh Walker has done a fantastic job of pre-warning readers exactly hat thet are getting, and for that I thank her. Some of the topics and emotions made me uncomfortable, but that was my own feelings, not because of the book.

I read this at the beginning of December and decided to leave it a while before writing my review.

Shiloh has broached a sensitive subject, and I think she did so with compassion, whilst also bringing into the storyline a sexually explicit role playing theme.

When the story unfolded I was completely drawn to Tania, the main character in this. Her husband died in a car crash, and later she's raped by her brother in law (her deceased husband's twin). I won't go into details further than that, but the plot does develop, and there are some stunning and chilling twists to it. I felt all the anxiety and unsurity surrounding how Tania felt, and marvelled alongside her as she progressed from retreating from her shell and being a victim, to acceptance and moving on with the help of Drake two years on from the rape. She takes back her fantasies, and her life.

Drake is a fantastic character. He's been in love with Tania from the beginning, but as her husband's best friend, has put his feelings in a box, and watched her grieve for her husband, and been her shoulder to cry on when she needed support. He comes across as really compassionate and so sweet. He's Tania's anchor when she decides to take back her fantasies and live life.

The storyline is packed with emotion and can be hard hitting in places, it's hard to believe that this is such as short story, there's so much in here, you really don't notice until the end. If you're not a fan of the intimacies within the pages, the emotions alone from this book are very palpable.

As stated, the story does have role play and fantasy rape scenes as well as light bondage. I think it's only suitable for adults.
(reviewed 32 days after purchase)

Review by: Bea on Dec. 20, 2010 :
Book Blurb: Beg me…there had been a time when those words made her burn with desire. But now, there was only fear.

Once, Tania Sinclair’s life was almost perfect…oh, it had its ups and downs but she was happily married to a guy that adored her, one who had no problem indulging every kinky fantasy she ever had. But a couple of tragedies later, she’s barely holding it together. A car accident took away her husband, and an attack from somebody she should have been able to trust has shaken not only her confidence, but it’s also stripped away her fantasies and even made it painful to look back on her memories of her husband without fear.

Two years after her attack, Tania is determined to take her life back and the first step is taking back herself…her fantasies, her dreams, her memories. There’s only one person she can trust to do it, too. One person she wants enough…Drake Bennett, her husband’s best friend.

Falling for your best friend’s wife—never smart. Drake’s watched Tania quietly for years, watched her…wanted her, knowing he’d never have her. First, she was taken. And then, that night two years ago—a night that still scars her, a night that’s left bruises on her that still haven’t healed. He does what he can, though, because he loves her too much not to. He’s her friend, there when she needs him.

And now she needs him. She’s asked him for a favor…one that just about blows his mind…

Warning: This book involves light bondage play, rape fantasy & role-playing. The acts between the hero & heroine are consensual, but they may not be ideal for all readers…

My Thoughts: I'm not really one for rape fantasies, they strike me as wrong and make me squirm. Rape, real rape, is pretty horrific.That said, people do have rape fantasies and I knew what I was getting when I bought this book. Not only does the book description include the above warning (I added the bolding) but Walker was also up front about it in her pre-publication buzz, both on her blog and on Twitter. I appreciated the fact that she was so upfront about the topic and so careful to inform her readers. The book sounded interesting and I decided to take a chance.

I'm glad that I did. The topic is handled with great sensitivity and I can almost see the appeal. I say almost because I just don't run that way. Of course, the story is a romance too and that was my favorite part. I liked how it unfolded though I did think the ending was a bit rushed. Still, the characters are well-written and the story held my interest. My main quibble has to do with the behavior and actions of Tania's in-laws, especially her brother-in-law. I had no trouble believing his actions at the beginning of the book, but what we find out later about him and his mother, that was less believable. Despite that, the story flowed well and I enjoyed it. I even enjoyed some of the sex scenes. Walker handled the emotional fallout of the rape fantasies with a deft touch.

Overall, a good book, well worth reading.
(reviewed 24 days after purchase)

Review by: Book Vixen on Dec. 01, 2010 :
Why I Read this Book: I have been wanting to try contemporary erotic romance for a while now. To be honest, I was a bit intimidated. I didn’t know what to expect or just how ‘erotic’ erotic would be, especially when I saw the warning on this book. I was a bit hesitant when I read rape fantasy. I have never read anything like that before and I didn’t know what to expect. So I took a deep breath, put my big girl panties on and decided to hand my contemporary erotic romance v-card over to Shiloh Walker. I love her writing style and really enjoyed reading Broken and The Missing so I put my trust in her hands and she didn’t disappoint.

What I Liked: This book packed quite a punch for only being a little over 100 pages! I didn’t think a story could come full circle, let alone such an emotional story, in so few pages but this author did just that. Beg Me read like a full length novel.

I felt such a strong connection with Tania and Drake. I ached for Tania, who’d literally been to hell and back. The traumatizing experience that robbed her of her precious memories with her husband broke my heart. The last couple of years have been really intense for her. All she wants to do is put it all behind her so she can move on and enjoy the sexual fantasies she once desired and she wants Drake to help her. Drake’s been in love with Tania since before she married his best friend. What he wants more than anything else is to be with her but that requires conquering some emotional hurdles.

What I Didn’t Like: I can’t think of anything I didn’t like. This was my first time reading contemporary erotic romance so I don’t have anything to compare it to.

Overall Impression: Shiloh Walker has (again) delivered a hot, steamy, emotional read. While she writes titillating love scenes, she also tugs at your heart strings. Beg Me focuses on not just the sex but the relationship between these characters as well. The raw emotions felt by the two main characters was intense. You can feel the chemistry between Tania and Drake.

While I enjoyed reading Beg Me, I will say that this is not a book for everyone. The main characters in this book enjoy partaking in rough sex and rape fantasies. Let’s tackle the elephant in the room – the rape fantasy element. The participants are willing and the sex is consensual. It’s role playing. There are safeguards in place, which made me feel more comfortable about reading it. If you’re okay with this and if you’re looking for a quick, hot read then Beg Me is it. If you looking for a contemporary erotic romance read to pop your cherry (like I was), then I think Beg Me is a good way to go.
(reviewed the day of purchase)

Review by: MinnChica on Nov. 28, 2010 :
Tania has been living in her own personal hell for almost two years now. After the death of her husband, his twin broke into her house and attacked her, taking all of her fantasies and twisting them viciously so that they have now become her nightmares. She is getting sick and tired of the problems sleeping, looking at her beloved pictures and her very memories haunting her, she takes matters into her own hands and turns to her friend Drake to help pull her out of her funk.

Drake has been in love with Tania as long as he can remember, and watching her go through hell day in and day out has been taking its toll on him. When she comes to him with a proposition: help her get past the nightmares and get back all her fantasies.

Walker does an amazing job at combing the hot erotic stories, with the heartfelt commitment and love of your typical romance. Beg Me, her first self published book, it no exception. The erotic scenes in this story, while may be offensive to some, are extremely hot and still romantic.

My heart broke for Tania continually through the story. I can't even imagine what it would be like to have your husband's identical twin break in and turn against you, especially when family should have been there to help her cope with the loss of her love. The strength that she posses, able to get up out of bed every day, amazes me.

Drake was my idea Alpha man. I love my men to have a little bit of caveman, and he does, with enough love and devotion to be the domineering alpha I've come to love. Having to watch him struggle with providing everything to Tania, while still trying to do his best for her, was warming and amazing

If different erotic kinks are right up your alley, this book is not to be missed!

I give Beg Me 4 out of 5 stars!
(reviewed 10 days after purchase)

Review by: Mandi on Nov. 22, 2010 :
Tania Sinclair not only has lost her husband three years ago, but she went through a brutal rape by her husband’s twin brother a year later. Tania likes her sex rough and she loved to play out rape fantasies with her husband. Obviously her husband never hurt her and it was all just a game in the bedroom. But when her husband’s mentally unstable brother gets wind of the kind of stuff Tania likes, he forces her to have sex.

Two years later, Tania is still struggling with moving past that experience. Drake Bennett was Kyle’s best friend and he still looks out for Tania. She trusts him and turns to him now that she knows she must move on from the rape. And in order to do that, she needs new memories. She needs someone to have sex with, someone who can play out the fantasy she needs, and someone who will not hurt her.

Drake has been in love with Tania for years and when she propositions him with sex, no strings attached, he knows he is the man for the job. As he gives her what she needs, being slow and gentle or hard and rough when needed, he can’t keep his love buried.

Beg Me is the second rape fantasy book I have read recently (the other being Willing Victim by Cara McKenna) but the difference in this book is that the heroine loves rape fantasy, but unfortunately gets raped. And I think Shiloh Walker does an excellent job describing the horrific incident and struggle Tania has gone through, yet still keeps the book very sexy and romantic.

Although Tania likes rough sex and rape fantasy, and she knows she needs to get back to that point in her sex life to move on from the actual rape, there is also a very fine line Drake has to walk so he doesn’t push her too hard too fast. Once Drake gets a feel for how much Tania can handle..oh man does he become a dirty, sexy hero.

Drake is such a gentleman, and loves Tania so much. He takes the responsibility of having sex with her very seriously, which might not sound romantic, but really it a very sexy thing to do. The best thing he does is give Tania back her control. And in the process, he gives her so much love that it is impossible for her to not accept it.

Beg Me is a very intense, hot book but offers romance and for a shorter book, takes you on an emotional journey. I really enjoyed it.
(reviewed the day of purchase)

Review by: Leela Lou on Nov. 21, 2010 :
After reading an exerpt of Beg Me on a website, I was anxiously awaiting the book. I was warned that it was different, but I wasn't warned that you should clear your calender for the next few hours because you won't be able to put it down.

It was like no other book I have read to date, but I absolutely loved it. Of course, it was hot but it was also sweet. Shiloh Walker is good at getting me to go through the full range of emotions in a single setting. As always a very powerful read.

I give it 5 stars for its ability to make me care about the characters, the originality of the storyline and resolution and the scorching eroticism in general. Well done.
(reviewed 3 days after purchase)

Review by: Romance Girl on Nov. 21, 2010 :
I am a new follower of Shiloh Walker so this was my first read of hers. All I can say is "Oh my goodness." This novella just about blew me away. You must go into the book with an open mind and be prepared for shocking details. There is actually a warning that the story involves light bondage, rape fantasy and role-playing. If your sensibilities do not allow you to think of such things, then I strongly recommend you don't start reading. If you are up for it, then you are in for a fantastic piece of writing. Do I recommend it for everyone? No. Only you can be the judge. Will I read another Shiloh Walker book? You betcha!
(reviewed 3 days after purchase)

Review by: Mean Marie on Nov. 21, 2010 :
Beg Me is Beg-A-Licious!

Beg Me is absolutely fabulous! Seriously. I couldn't put it down. I stayed up late into the night reading. Shiloh Walker has the ability to grab me by the throat and drag me into whatever story she is telling. She did that AGAIN in Beg Me.

From the author's website:
Beg me...there had been a time when those words made her burn with desire. But now, there was only fear.

Once, Tania Sinclair's life was almost perfect...oh, it had its ups and downs but she was happily married to a guy that adored her, one who had no problem indulging every kinky fantasy she ever had. But a couple of tragedies later, she's barely holding it together. A car accident took away her husband, and an attack from somebody she should have been able to trust has shaken not only her confidence, but it's also stripped away her fantasies and even made it painful to look back on her memories of her husband without fear.

Two years after her attack, Tania is determined to take her life back and the first step is taking back herself...her fantasies, her dreams, her memories. There's only one person she can trust to do it, too. One person she wants enough...Drake Bennett, her husband's best friend.

Falling for your best friend's wife--never smart. Drake's watched Tania quietly for years, watched her...wanted her, knowing he'd never have her. First, she was taken. And then, that night two years ago--a night that still scars her, a night that's left bruises on her that still haven't healed. He does what he can, though, because he loves her too much not to. He's her friend, there when she needs him.

And now she needs him. She's asked him for a that just about blows his mind...

WARNING: This book involves light bondage play, rape fantasy & role-playing. The acts between the hero & heroine are consensual, but they may not be ideal for all readers...

Ok. Here's the thing: I LOVE reading about everything listed in the WARNING above. *purr* Those elements really push my 'kink' buttons. Beg Me really had me revved up. REALLY.

But that's not all that Beg Me is about. Beg Me isn't just an erotic kink story. Beg Me has substance. It has a STORY. Beg Me has an emotionally moving story. It made me weepy.

If you like a love story with emotion, suspense and kink, you'll love Beg Me!
(reviewed the day of purchase)

Review by: RhyanB on Nov. 20, 2010 :
A great book. It shows that you can have a rich fantasy life.
(reviewed 2 days after purchase)

Review by: brandi drapinski on Nov. 20, 2010 :
I have been really intrigued by this story since I fisrt stumbled upon it. Now that I finally got a chance to read it, it has surpassed all my expectations. The author has put up warnings for some of the context of the book, if you know that is something you are not interested in then I would not suggest this book to you. But if the context will not bother you then let this author take you on a journey to 2 peoples emotional recovery. You will fall in love with tania and drake and the only disappointment I had was that it ended.
(reviewed the day of purchase)

Review by: Carrie Ryan on Nov. 19, 2010 :
I went into this reading Shiloh's warnings about the fact that some may be uncomfortable. I didn't need those warnings. This book was well done and something different from what I have read in the past. I never stopped and put down my kindle when I started this book. I couldn't stop reading it. It was emotional and sexual. I was pulling for him the first time I heard his thoughts and was feeling for her the first time I heard hers. This book is totally worth reading again and making you think.
Thank you Shiloh.
(reviewed the day of purchase)

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