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I grew up in a middle class neighborhood in the suburbs of St. Louis, Missouri. My father was a computer analyst and my mother babysat children out of our home. I also have two older sisters.
I attended Catholic schools from kindergarten through high school. I was highly involved in the church as a young child and my parents were devout Catholics. I was even an altar boy for years.
During and after high school I fell away from my faith, as many do, and lived quite a wild life. Partying and drinking became an everyday event for my friends and I. We were up for anything with no regrets.
A few failed relationships later accompanied by a general lack of direction I began to lose myself. Despite my behavior, I did remain a hard worker and I genuinely cared for other people. The problem though, was that I had no particular reason, why, I was doing any of the things I was doing. I lacked confidence, I began drinking heavier, and all my relationships suffered as a whole. My friend circle was shrinking as I began to discover people are often not what they seem. To add fuel to the fire, I started to battle with severe anxiety.
After years of fast living and a complete derailment of whom I was, I really had myself in a scary spot. My anxiety was consuming me and I felt like I might never regain control of it.
This was the point in time I started searching for myself again and some answers about life. Although I have always considered myself a follower of Christian beliefs as far as how to take care of and treat one another, I never felt any true connection to my spirituality and I wanted that to change. I also wanted to find real answers to why I was feeling as anxious as I was and figure out how to fix it. I set some goals for helping myself and started exploring ways to achieve them. To be honest, it was very important to me to be able to self-diagnose and fix the problems I was having internally.
When I began exploring methods for dealing with my problems I did not intend on becoming completely immersed in the world of psychology, but that is exactly what ended up happening. I even went on to obtain my Bachelors degree in Liberal Arts with an emphasis in Psychology from the University of Missouri-St Louis. While studying, I was learning many different ways of bettering my life and myself. In addition to the knowledge I was gaining in psychology, I studied a variety of world religions. I learned about many, from Hindu, to Buddhism, to the Kabala and found the underlying message of each of them. The commonality in each was that, the sense of purpose was the main contributor to the level of sadness or happiness within the individual. Also, a lack of understanding of purpose greatly affected families and communities as well. I have determined therefore, the ultimate goal is not to compare ourselves to each other, but to contribute what we can to the betterment of the lives around us. This is how my wife and I live our lives everyday and it is what we plan to teach our soon to be born son as he grows.
My mission is to continue to learn ways for all of us to connect to one another in a positive way. I feel, each of us needs to contribute more in order to create a world where the goodness builds on itself and snowballs. If globally, we as a group make small incremental changes for the good of humanity, we would not have to work to build a better world it would just become better. Most importantly the efforts made would not disappear after we do, the directional changes would continue on forever.