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After a suicide attempt that robs him of his memory, Ryan must try to figure out how to live his life without making the same mistakes. More

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About Margaret Chatwin

I love to laugh, which is weird, considering that my favorite types of movies are dramas. I guess I just crave the emotion they create and their ability to let me inside the head and heart of the character.
I like my books the same way - soulful and raw.
I don't pretend to be a professional writer. I'm not schooled in all the ins and outs of forming a perfect paragraph, etc, but I do work my tail off to build characters that you can really "feel." Characters that you can fall in love or hate with. Characters that will make you want to turn the next page.
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Review by: Alysa H on June 10, 2015 :
A surprisingly compelling read, though the dialogue was a little clunky and the characters a little inconsistent sometimes. It works mostly as a take-down of "toxic masculinity"; it's a What If? story about what would happen to this type of guy if everything got stripped away, in this case quite literally via amnesia. I kind of wish that the author had gone even further with the idea, and had the main character Ryan exploring even more issues re gender, socioeconomic status, etc., in addition to the familial relationships and such.

As it stands, it's still pretty good YA. Could benefit from one more round of copy-editing, as with many indie novels, but the mistakes didn't really affect my opinion of the content.
(reviewed 2 years after purchase)
Review by: Christine on Oct. 12, 2014 : (no rating)
I contacted the Author Margaret Chatwin about this book, and she gave me a copy in exchange for a review.
Ryan was speeding and busted through the guard rail, sailed out over the ravine and landed at the bottom in a barely recognizable crumpled mess. He was not wearing his seat belt. A botched suicide attempt is what they tell Ryan, but he doesn't remember a thing. Ryan wakes up with no memories about his life and a badly broken body. He can recall everything else that has happened all these years, just nothing about his own life. One hundred and three days excruciating days is how long Ryan was in the hospital. The man and woman that have been at his side are his parents Wendy and Craig Farnsworth, they are taking him home to the huge house that they live in. Ryan has a terrible limp, and has to be carried up steps by his father. His life is very humble now. We meet Lucas the younger brother Ryan has seen once at the hospital and in family pictures. You get a very distinct picture of the nasty home life Lucas has, a verbal and sometimes physical abusive one. One that stars Ryan as a monster towards everyone especially Lucas .Ryan was an entitled rich kid and the captain of the football team and king of his school. There is a home coming party for Ryan, and we meet Zane his once best friend. It is a funny meeting!!!Ryan is very overwhelmed by being thrown into a party with so many people and freaks out and leaves and gets lost. He meets Paige someone that doesn't know him because she is new in town. She is the one person he feels comfortable around because she is the only person that isn't waiting for him to became himself again. Page likes Ryan for the wonderful person he has become. There is also Tasha the head cheerleader and most beautiful girl in town. She is very pushy and aggressive with Ryan,she wants her fearless and entitled Ryan back. Tasha is the first memory Ryan has and this complicates his feelings very much! I really enjoyed this book! I was worried about how Ryan was going to react when he found out the kind of monster he was. I wondered if Lucas was going to hurt Ryan like when he use to beat him? Was it a suicide attempt or was it a murder attempt? I swore Zane (The Best friend that took over Ryan's life while he was in the hospital) tried to kill Ryan. You will have to read the book to find these things out. I really like the new Ryan and I was routing for him! I wanted him to retain the wonderful person he has turned into. It is so easy to get lost in the characters in this book, and to wonder who should Ryan really trust? You swear I will only read a few more pages then off to bed or the real world!! Alas you find it was more like a few more chapters! Margaret Chatwin is a wonderful author, and she had me fooled at the end of the book about who Ryan would end up with and I loved every moment of it! There are a lot of secrets that come out and a lot of excitement! We do find out what sent Ryan over the edge that night and it hurts!! We see what a terrible dark place he was in before he took off that night that everything changed. This is a wonderful book ,I laughed a lot and cried many times! The end really touched me and I cried for a while after I finished! I highly recommend this book!!!
(reviewed 20 days after purchase)
Review by: Branden Vanscoy on Oct. 23, 2013 :
This is a very elegantly crafted story, a must read.
(reviewed 7 days after purchase)

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