I'm Not The Man I Used To Be
The true life story of a transgender person who, after five decades of secrecy, accepts the spirit trapped inside and sets it free. More
I've felt transgender since my earliest memory. The word didn't even exist at that time, and there was no one I could talk to about it. So I spent a great many years trying to figure it out on my own, somehow knowing that I dared not reveal my secret to anyone.
I carried quite a burden of shame, and I went through countless episodes of denial - thinking I could ignore, outwit and ultimately defeat those feelings that kept coming back even stronger.
And, in the end, acceptance was my only option. The suicide rate for transgender people - those who cannot resolve their gender dysphoria - is abysmally high. I'm thankful to be of strong enough mind that I did not succumb to depression or hopelessness.
It's my hope that by telling my story I can give aid and comfort to others who are on the same path and provide education to those who seek to understand the transgender condition.