What was life to me then? A big deception. What was a deception?
Deception was the worst misery I knew of. Right then, in the spiritual silence,
an unnamable feeling was eating at my soul and I allowed it to destroy the
life left in me.
First of all, I was soooo excited when I got a request from Silvano to review his book!!!he was actually the 2nd author to approach me himself to do this...so I practically jumped from happiness!!!and said YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OKAY!!!NOW!!I was reading it and was like!!~WTH!!!!!!!!!~ why did I say yes in the first place??!!! this book it's not my style at all!!!!!
I actually stopped reading it in the first pages of the fisrt chapter---Adiran's mind speaking-----and said I just take a break. Picked it up a few days later...and still I was just dragging my eyes...and MAKING myself read it...just because!
FINALLY!! after the whole 1st chapter was done!!~torture~
I started to get a handdle on it.
Adiran is completely and I don't know what else!! MAD!! with everything-everyone!! in the whole universe!!! and it's obvious he just doesn't want to keep on living.what's with politics anyways??!!uh??!!
I really got lost at times because of the change of thoughts or scenery so abrubt from Adiran, but hey...he was crazy...so what should I have expected from him?
-the tittle I loooove!!!
Adiran is lost...that's what I thought and think over and over when I remember reading this book!!
taking you to the dark and creepy places your own mind can take you to, Spoon Fed Addiction is not an easy nor fun read AT ALL! it's sad, raw and almost cruel!in a really sad depressing way.
Through Adiran I got to know how we're always trying to hide through a charade some times of our lives...but in the end...we're always afraid of something...one thing exactly---and that's
BEING ALONE---wich applies not having someone to love and to love you back...
I DO NOT RECOMMEND this book to kids under 15 at all!!!not because of the cruelty...or rawness of it...but simply because I don't think you'll get it...you really have to look deep in you to find a spott to like of Adiran...
and in the end...it's just that...
an addiction---of hatred of loneliness, of emptiness of madness of all the bad things a person goes through right before that person end's up his/her life...
LIFE'S HARD and SUCKS that's Adiran's whole thinking through out the book.
i don't know if I hated it or loved it or simply don't care---
but practically over the end...when we see with his pov...how he goes on and opens up for the first time to someone...you see that he simply is another one of us...and that he wasn't strong enough to face life ever again...after all the horrible things he does in the book~his last day~.
4/5---(took me too long to actually get into the thick plot of the book)
(reviewed 22 days after purchase)