This is Part 1 of the detailed events of my last 24 hours in the United States prior to my deployment to Iraq in 2003 with the 4th Infantry Division "Buffalo Soldiers". More
My purpose of writing about my time before, during and after my tours to Iraq is to tell situations in which I have gone through in my struggle with PTSD. Through my 2 combat tours in Iraq and the personal and professional struggles I endured. I realized that not much light was able to reach me at the bottom. I want to help those who truly can’t or won’t help themselves. I want to tell about my struggles in everyday life and how to embrace PTSD with out letting it take over your life.
The reason why I believe I can write about this is because I almost threw away everything I had accomplished in my entire life because I thought I couldn’t handle certain situations with my daily thoughts, interactions, and emotions. My problems were and are amped up because of PTSD. My anger, my reactions, my emotional state, and my ego were all either hyper inflated or completely deflated.
There are definitely things that can hinder your recovery and things that can help. Not in the generic sense but in the sense of a dramatic trial and error. If you don’t know drinking and depression doesn’t work. Drinking and driving sure as hell doesn’t either. But finding that happy medium is key. It goes to the old adage, think long think wrong. If you have to think “Is this going to hurt me or someone else or have long lasting equally bad effects.” Don’t do it.
I did a tremendous amount of wrong and bad things, that effected my recovery. But I am telling you this. I don’t want to glorify anything , but I am glad I did it the way I did. If not, I wouldn’t realize what I have going for me and I wouldn’t have met my “Goddess.”
This is my journey to Iraq and back. Enjoy!
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