Trying to Make a Difference in an Indifferent World
Each of us can make a difference. Each of us can help remake the world into a more positive place. If you believe in yourself and what you are doing, nothing can stop you. As I grew up, I didn't know this. No one told me. My parents and grandparents on both sides didn't have the luxury of following their dreams. Their dreams disintegrated, as they strove to make sure they had food and shelter. They worked harder than my generation on down has ever worked. There was no welfare. There was no state support. There was just hard work or starvation. When hard times hit, they toughed it out as best they could. Some of them didn't make it.
On my own, through pain and sorrow, I learned, over time, that if I wanted the world to be a kind place, one where people fulfilled their dreams and helped each other, it had to begin with me.
One of my first steps was to write a book about a horrific family tragedy. My goal was to help people understand what it's like to have a member of one's family kill someone. When I was thirty my brother shot and killed four of his neighbors. It nearly destroyed my loving parents. It destroyed all the things I believe in. I determined to make this horrific event a catalyst for good. My first book on the subject was published in 1993. Thus began my publishing career. At this point I'm writing my twelfth book. A more comprehensive look at that tragedy is published here: My Brother Murdered His Neighbors.
The next step in my evolution began in 2001. I started watching Jerry Yarnell's School of Fine Art on OPB. I recorded the step-by-step shows, watched and rewatched them, picking up painting tips, and I began painting. I discovered Jerry's Web site and purchased more instructional material. He, alone, taught me to paint. Painting is the first activity I ever found where I become so engrossed that I lose track of time and the myriad things that weigh on me. In 2004 my husband built our Web site to display my paintings. I paint and design my own cover art. The site grew to encompass our many areas of interest. Today, he and I are both following our bliss.
To have a happy, fulfilling life I have one suggestion. No matter where your life has led you, no matter what discouragements you have experienced, find and follow your bliss - your inner dreams, the ones you may have forgotten, the ones you have yet to discover. That's what I have done, and it's worth it. It's worth it! Learn to love yourself, truly love yourself. Allow that love to radiate out to others and don't be discouraged by negative reactions. Just keep on keeping on, no matter what. Never, never, never give up. This is the way to remake the world into a positive place, one person at a time, starting with me and you. You are person of high value, worth more than you will ever know. Believe it.