Copyright 2011 Hayley Howard
“That's what real love amounts to- letting a person be what he really is. Most people love you for who you pretend to be. To keep their love, you keep pretending- performing. You get to love your pretence. It's true; we're locked in an image, an act-”Jim Morrison.
New year, New Me?
Tuesday was a good day, although it was still bitterly cold, the sun was shining for a change and I had finally got over my New Year’s Eve comedown/hangover/at deaths door state and I wanted to do something positive, with it being the 2nd of January and all, when everyone always seems to reflect on their life. And to be fair, I had some serious reflection to do.
I’d read in one of Candy’s hippy magazines that for your new year’s resolutions instead of just saying and forgetting them, you should write them on scraps of paper and keep them in a box, then every couple of weeks check the box, add to it, take out what you’d managed to change or achieve etc. and it would supposedly help you ‘move forward with your life in a positive direction’ it kind of inspired me so I went and bought some stationery. I got the little silver box from a market stall in town, it had coloured gems all over it and it was nice and shiny. I spent ages choosing the pink patterned card and a purple glittery gel pen. I lay back on my bed and thought about what I really wanted to change. It was a lot. In swirly writing I started;
Not that that would happen. There were so many things I wanted to change but it all felt so
unachievable, too hard or just plain impossible, I thought for half an hour, convincing myself that I