My Schizophrenic Experience

Dennis Hou

Copyright 2016 Dennis Hou

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This is a memoir about my personal experience with schizophrenia, starting from when I was the age of fourteen, turning fifteen in a month. This memoir starts from six months before my first hospital admission, up to my first relapse and then an epilogue after, describing my current state. My journey expands over the course of two years or so, and I have tried my best to cover everything that had happened. You will notice that, even though it is very long, it is a summary of what had happened, because there is no way I could possible rewrite everything. I have also tried to include the dosages and the names of the medication I took through my journey, just on the side. I hope you enjoy this memoir.

Chapter 1

It seems to me that being diagnosed for schizophrenia is a horrendously inefficient process. If you ever choose to do research about it, you will discover that when you have a psychotic episode, it is recommended for you to call a physician immediately. This ensures that you will be treated as soon as possible, because supposedly the longer you live with the psychosis, the more your brain degrades, making it even harder to be treated. However, the problem with this is that most people do not really know enough about schizophrenia to even acknowledge what a psychotic episode is. By the time I got a psychotic episode, I was delusional enough that I assumed the voices had to be real. What happened was that these episodes progressed gradually. I would start off believing little things, like I could hear psychic comments about me, and thus new hallucinations were then not so crazy to accept. The worst part is that at that point you have accepted so many delusions that further delusions just seem to make sense.

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