This has been my chance to put the entries in order (I hate that blogs are always posted chronologically backwards), clean up a few grammar mistakes and add a bit.
The comments have been redacted. As much fun as some of the threads became, I don’t feel I have a right to other people’s writing.
What you have here is more a process than a product. This is what and how I think- as a husband, father, jail guard, martial artist, teacher, writer…
Wow, it’s been almost five years. Starting as a jail guard who didn’t think I had much to say, turns out there were a lot of words sealed in. So over seven hundred blog entries and one book later, it’s time for this.
Karma and Uncertainty, 13July05
Not to be overly dramatic, but I might have saved a life Friday. A gangbanger bigger and heavier than I am was choking another against a table. I peeled him off and spun him to the ground. He started to rise and I yelled "Stay down!" with the sensei voice and he did... there was blood everywhere from a cut on his chin.
Hence the karma question- if you save the life of someone whom you know to be a violent criminal, is it a good thing? Do you take on responsibility for his future predation?
The lotus-eaters, the ones who talk about enlightenment as if it was joy instead of understanding, will say 'no'. They don't want to believe that a good act can have evil consequences. It can, and you are responsible for it all, good or bad.
So why did I do it? Because I wear a uniform. Because I want to live in a world where the people in uniforms do the job expected.