Interview with Theodora Oniceanu

What's the story behind your latest book?
My latest book is actually my first published here - that would be "Compact Smokes or A book for children". It is a book about a girl who somehow refuses to grow-up making her way to something that appears to be a fantasy-success of an artist. It is the desired and dreamed of position carried inside and wanted by every human being; success and happiness are something which a young spirit might confuse to be working together inseparably which is not the case in real life, at least not always. Still, the stubborn child in me wanted to offer the crazy unawareness of a so called 'free spirit' a chance to progress happily.
What motivated you to become an indie author?
I have enjoyed writing stories and poems of my own for quite some time now. Stories were somehow left behind for a while getting back to me when I needed to offer to my artistic expressions a story to get along with and carry the meanings behind to different levels and areas of storytelling and knowledge of the world. They needed to be alive somehow and, in my personal feel, a story would just do that: light the candle of life inside the core of the work.
As I found difficulty in finding 'my kind' of readers and their feedback I started publishing online and, one thing leading to another, I ended up discovering 'smashwords' as a place to have my writing 'shipped' to other minds and souls.
What is the greatest joy of writing for you?
Writing brings relief and joy; it is a journey to self recognition and acknowledgment of who I became throughout the artistic explorations I initiated. It is a continuous learning about my own self and what it can gather, what I can accept and in which terms, why those terms and not others. It makes me want more from myself and ask much more from myself; it also opens the doors to what I didn't quite understand well enough, to what I have to get back at for a second review or a third one, to what I need to reevaluate and to what I should have known earlier.
Constant exploration of the world reflected upon the self, that is what writing means to me.
What do your fans mean to you?
My real fans, the ones who show the real respect for my choices and my privacy and who can find the meaning behind my work mean the world to me; that part of the world which decently and honestly keeps its promise to be a better world, one which can understand and enjoy things that I do or I don't do, judging for themselves and through their own selves; one which is able to look for the answers they need without 'killing the author' (as I'm writing these last words I feel like smiling this way through the door).
What are you working on next?
Well, as a whole new project, I have something prepared in my mind which requires a lot of research. There is also a lot of work that I've already done but couldn't get the time to shape-up and decide on its 'best show' but it is continuously asking me to get it done and published so, I am going to work on that too.
Who are your favorite authors?
Oh, God! There are a lot of favourites!
First of all, I am quite in love with tales and fairy tales. Lewis Carroll's writing is one obsessions; P. L. Travers and Roald Dahl; Antoine de Saint-Exupéry and La Fontaine's fables. Interesting enough were some of the 'must reads' imposed by the classes I attended: Alexandre Dumas (father), Balzac, Stendhal, Robespierre, Jean-Jaques Rousseau Jayne Eyre, Oscar Wilde, Franz Kafka, Nicolae Steinhardt etc.; the romantic poets as Arthur Rimbaud and Mihail Eminescu had some influence on me, mostly because I had to study them in school. James Joyce had something to say to me too and Sylvia Plath was quite a revelation, so to speak. They all left something in my mind to work with or dispose of at times of different value.
I will always love though Eugene Ionesco and Samuel Beckett who opened my eyes to a whole new world and a different perspective over the artistic expression.
What inspires you to get out of bed each day?
Lost dreams, wishes that were buried along with frustration and regrets which needed to be put to a better use than nothing at all. The need to make something good out of something that doesn't look that well; fantasy and the wish to project the impossible into the possible, see how to make-it up if I didn't live it or, better said: find my own way to express what I believe I managed to live in a personal way, through the emotions felt along the causalities of life.
When you're not writing, how do you spend your time?
I am an artist working on several grounds of artistic expression; I draw, I paint and produce a lot of digital imagery too (well, as much as I can). I also enjoy finding ways to make it all useful somehow.
How do you discover the ebooks you read?
I haven't read many e-books, yet; I can say that I enjoy paper a lot. Still, the e-book way is a very easy and useful way to read books! Some e-books I found looked good, others felt like they were missing something. Now that I'm exploring this area of publishing e-books I might get to understand more why.
Do you remember the first story you ever wrote?
Oh, my God, no! I am not sure. I used to tell invented-bu-myself bedtime stories to my sister when we were little; i was actually mixing up many stories and messing things well enough to help her sleep. She was too afraid of the dark so I felt like 'playing the rescuer'. I remember one story I wrote in 6th or 7th grade though! It was about a girl Sonia, who travels to another existence in another world, the upper world, where she finds the meaning and purpose of her life then gets back to earth to live her human life. I guess that I remember writing this story only because I got the equivalent of an A for it; our literature and grammar teacher back then was a very exigent one so It was extremely hard to get an A. No punctuation misplaced or forgotten was allowed and most certainly no grammar mistakes. It was odd to step into the real world afterwards and see that it doesn't really matter that much how you write and express yourself 'if you get the job done' (again, I cannot help myself not laughing a little at this. I still care about how I write and why I'm doing it!).
What is your writing process?
Crazy, Chaotic and Fun, mostly, I can say!
No, really, I enjoy looking for inspiration everywhere while doing something, thinking about what I see and how I can interpret things, overthinking sometimes then let it all out on a piece of paper. I sometimes let things and messages from within flow down a piece of paper, find a rest in a notebook and then get shaped and published one day under the 'proper' cover. Other times I find myself writing a lot of things that just need to get out of me with no intention to get anywhere on the screen or in a book; then, one day I find the expression for them! It's been a while since I wrote anything in the 'organised way', taking information from a series of books and papers around me, making-up sentences that will be constantly changed and reshaped in the quest to avoid any impersonal way of expressing myself. It is as hilarious as it seems, this way, but it can offer some time to adjust to the hight of the levels one imposes to themselves.
Do you remember the first story you ever read, and the impact it had on you?
The very first story I read? No. I have no clue. I remember one of some chicks looking for their mom, or something similar to that - there were some chicks, of that Im sure, but the very story, I don't remember completely. It was one of those very short stories for children who learn how to read found in the manual we had in school. Then there were some other stories there: one about some bakery, another one about a very stubborn girl who wouldn't listen to her mother and some emotional story about a baby deer - something like Bamby only it wasn't it. This baby-deer story line followed me through my childhood and adolescence too, and I guess that it made me stop to Alexandru Macedonsky's poetry and enjoy it with more interest that one would expect.
Published 2018-06-08.
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Books by This Author

Something to Follow
Price: $1.00 USD. Words: 26,430. Language: English. Published: January 25, 2019. Categories: Fiction » Poetry » Themes & motifs, Nonfiction » Art, Architecture, Photography » Fine art
Lines of poetry and glimpses at stories about life aspects all glued together with the lyrics that I managed to combine for an atmospheric dynamic and dramatic writing-project gathered in the form of an e-book that I hope you will enjoy. There are aspects of the world of art and life getting haunted by feelings, thoughts and whatever they might provoke, evoke, rise and raise in any human being.
The Bat of Stars and the Salt on the Lips
Price: $0.99 USD. Words: 17,750. Language: English. Published: November 6, 2018. Categories: Fiction » Literature » Literary, Fiction » Inspirational
"Compact Smokes or A book for children" is the reason why this brochure-like e-book emerged. It's still about May but not only. Call this one a start of a beautiful nightmare - it did feel like a haunting moment and I did let words follow their stream of consciousness as much as I could.
MissLead: Bleeding Memory
Price: Free! Words: 7,660. Language: English. Published: September 12, 2018. Categories: Fiction » Poetry » Spiritual, Fiction » Inspirational
Based on a project meant as an homage brought to victims of abuse of any kind, this collection gathers some pieces of writing that include particles of journal-style writing, a bit of poetry and rhythmic and rhyming pieces through which the puzzles of the entire picture not fully created send their vibes and generate sensations for the readers to interpret and understand through their own selves.
In T[I'M]
You set the price! Words: 3,610. Language: English. Published: June 25, 2018. Categories: Fiction » Poetry » Themes & motifs, Fiction » Poetry » Epic
Is a journey back home a real journey if you haven't really left home? A traveler left home without knowing, in their try of initiating an exploration taking place in a fantastic way, giving birth to forms of literature easy to dance your eye upon. How much of a present we are when we live in both the past we seek to learn from and the future shaping in our mind as we struggle to shape the 'now'?
The Hour of the Blue Man
You set the price! Words: 3,700. Language: English. Published: June 6, 2018. Categories: Fiction » Literature » Literary, Fiction » Poetry » Spiritual
Nature of the human heart is reflecting upon the world, burning up to the skies to ask for fulfilment. "The Hour of the Blue Man" is a collection of poems in which one can find a gathering of reflective thoughts and shows upon these subjects as I got to transpose and translate into words - and not only -in the past four years.
Prism Tears
Price: Free! Words: 23,690. Language: English. Published: June 5, 2018. Categories: Fiction » Literature » Literary, Fiction » Poetry » Spiritual
Along with the classics' old and new and the ancient spheres of spiritual values, inspired from the things we love or resent, the things we remember and the ones we'd like to be at peace with, 'Prism Tears' is meant to offer a place for a reunion of thoughts transposed into the shape of heartfelt, ironical, playful and blue conversations through lyrics, rhythms, rhymes and 'small-talk'.
Compact Smokes or A Book for Children
You set the price! Words: 57,350. Language: English. Published: May 22, 2018. Categories: Fiction » Transgressional fiction, Fiction » Literature » Literary
Particles of life and ideas floating in the air, along with emotions and long recycled and processed feelings, drive May, a young student, writer and actor, to the very peaks of success. But what is success? And is it enough for May to be happy? Constantly working on her vaporous dreams, young May avoids looking for love anywhere else but in her beloved arts. Will she avoid it forever?
Time Files: PersonAll, Revolving around Alice and I[m]Personal
Price: $0.99 USD. Words: 18,730. Language: English. Published: April 29, 2018. Categories: Fiction » Visionary & metaphysical, Fiction » Inspirational
"Time Files" is a writing Project of mine, conceived in three parts, one I started to work on to a few years ago. It is meant to bring to the public eye some of the writing I was enjoying to explore while thinking about then write down some of my own versions of the stories I always loved playing a little distortion on, combining and mixing elements from one fairy-tale, film or story to another.