Interview with C.Y. Dillon

Do you remember the first story you ever wrote?
The first story I ever wrote was about sex. I was 14 and he was twice my age. Only one person was permitted to have a copy of that before I destroyed it: my 9th grade English teacher. I have since written a new short story about Nicholas because I want the world to know that teenagers are children who do not know what is best for them, and adults should not have sex with teens.
What do you think readers should know about your autobiographical ebooks?
Mental illness runs in my family. That sounds funny, but it's no joke, though we are great at using humor to get by! My sense of humor is very warped and on the dark side. I have had homicidal fantasies about people who have hurt me or my children. Of course, I won't act on those urges, but it is interesting to notice the craving for vengeance. I'm a grizzly mama bear!

In 1993 I was diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and have learned a great deal about depression and anxiety since then. My intention is to de-stigmatize mental healthcare and help everyone to realize that reaching for professional help to deal with mood disorders that could cause you to become a danger to yourself or others is no different than seeking help from a doctor for diabetes.

My style is to the point and cathartic. Someone criticized me for writing the story of my rape at age 15 with too much "I... I... I..." and guess what? -- I don't care what that reader thinks. It was done on purpose. The mindset of a 15-year-old girl the day after she was raped is all about "I shouldn't have been so stupid." That's where it was written from, but ultimately the child grows out of that and recognizes the truth: there are human predators.

Nevertheless, my life story ends on a happy note because I am a survivor. It was the family counselor who said it was "remarkable".
What motivated you to become an indie author?
Creative freedom. Business managers tend to pigeon-hole creative types and try to guess what's going to be a huge success because they only get a small percentage, so they have to make you be super commercial, and they tell you what to do, when and where to go -- it isn't worth the sacrifices to let others control your life! Since fame and fortune are not the reason I write, there is really nothing I need from a publishing company. I write for catharsis and to say what I have to say to the world, and let the chips fall where they may. You don't find many authors who are willing to be vulnerable and authentic, to help others to find peace and happiness in this cold, dark world! My goal is to write authentically and gradually develop a following of readers who will support me in my old age.
How has Smashwords contributed to your success?
Smashwords gives me total artistic control over my work and allows me to create coupons so that I can give my followers discounts and freebies. Mark Coker is a very nice man and has been personally helpful when I have needed technical support. Smashwords has premium distribution channels with Apple, Barnes & Noble, Sony and many others, so it makes it easy to reach libraries and all the main ebook sites with one upload!
Published 2013-08-24.
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Books by This Author

The Master Lies Dead
By C.Y. Dillon
Price: Free! Words: 810. Language: English. Published: August 24, 2013. Category: Fiction
A rural Sheriff is called to investigate a foul odor coming from a remote cabin and discovers a female slave in the basement bound by invisible chains. Short story written for mature readers.
How to Commit Suicide
By C.Y. Dillon
Price: $1.29 USD. Words: 3,620. Language: English. Published: August 22, 2013. Category: Nonfiction
The first time she used the internet was to search for how to do it and make it look accidental. What she found changed her path forever. This short story is offered to de-stigmatize mental illness. If you are experiencing thoughts of suicide, or you know someone who has withdrawn and seems to be in a dark place, read this.
Wild Child
By C.Y. Dillon
You set the price! Words: 19,400. Language: English. Published: August 11, 2012. Category: Screenplays
Natalie is the super role model of modern women on the verge of winning a Nobel Prize for a breakthrough in biotechnology when she is undone by a humiliating betrayal. Her assistant invites her out with friends to cheer her up and she begins to indulge in a secret affair that could cost her the prize and ruin her business. (Screenplay, PG13, Romantic Dramedy)
Love of Her Life
By C.Y. Dillon
You set the price! Words: 12,920. Language: English. Published: August 11, 2012. Category: Screenplays
A young woman buys a ticket for a dream cruise on a Mississippi River paddle boat in anticipation of a first date with Orion, whom she believes could be the love of her life. Her sincerity and integrity are put to the test when he decides he is not the right man for her and sets in motion a way for her to choose his paraplegic brother. Original Screenplay - Romantic Dramedy for Mature Readers
Nicholas
By C.Y. Dillon
Price: $0.99 USD. Words: 6,290. Language: English. Published: June 5, 2012. Category: Nonfiction
It is difficult to write honestly about Nicholas. He was a statutory rapist who altered my identity, and not for the best—it would have been far better if he had continued to teach me the difference between love and sex by not having sex with me. I write this to inform psychologists and adults who think it’s harmless to have sex with teenagers. It does more harm than good.
A Temporary Sanity
By C.Y. Dillon
You set the price! Words: 20,620. Language: English. Published: May 7, 2012. Category: Screenplays
WARNING: Written for Mature Readers this script contains coarse language, some violence and sexual situations that may be disturbing to some. This ebook is not appropriate for teens—if you are under 18 and reading this, the author strongly recommends that you stop and read something that will not haunt you for the rest of your life. The bad guy is a psychological rapist.
LSD and Me
By C.Y. Dillon
Price: $0.99 USD. Words: 3,160. Language: English. Published: April 6, 2012. Category: Nonfiction
Many parents worry about their teens getting seduced by drug users who want to pay for their habit by dealing small quantities. It's a common social concern. The author offers this short segment of her memoirs separately to inform curious teens that LSD and other drugs are not all their hyped up to be, and that creativity is not dependent on drugs, but can actually be ruined by drugs.
Memoirs of a Remarkable Survivor
By C.Y. Dillon
Price: $9.99 USD. Words: 35,090. Language: English. Published: March 23, 2012. Category: Nonfiction
This book is dedicated to anyone who has earned their diploma from the University of Hard Knocks! Be thankful for your own resilience--not everyone can take a beating and stand up. In 1993, a family counselor told the author it was remarkable that she had not attempted suicide. "You haven't even heard half of it!" Today, the author's life is full of love, peace, joy and harmony. Here is light.