Interview with C.Y. Dillon

Do you remember the first story you ever wrote?
The first story I ever wrote was about sex. I was 14 and he was twice my age. Only one person was permitted to have a copy of that before I destroyed it: my 9th grade English teacher. I have since written a new short story about Nicholas because I want the world to know that teenagers are children who do not know what is best for them, and adults should not have sex with teens.
What do you think readers should know about your autobiographical ebooks?
Mental illness runs in my family. That sounds funny, but it's no joke, though we are great at using humor to get by! My sense of humor is very warped and on the dark side. I have had homicidal fantasies about people who have hurt me or my children. Of course, I won't act on those urges, but it is interesting to notice the craving for vengeance. I'm a grizzly mama bear!

In 1993 I was diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and have learned a great deal about depression and anxiety since then. My intention is to de-stigmatize mental healthcare and help everyone to realize that reaching for professional help to deal with mood disorders that could cause you to become a danger to yourself or others is no different than seeking help from a doctor for diabetes.

My style is to the point and cathartic. Someone criticized me for writing the story of my rape at age 15 with too much "I... I... I..." and guess what? -- I don't care what that reader thinks. It was done on purpose. The mindset of a 15-year-old girl the day after she was raped is all about "I shouldn't have been so stupid." That's where it was written from, but ultimately the child grows out of that and recognizes the truth: there are human predators.

Nevertheless, my life story ends on a happy note because I am a survivor. It was the family counselor who said it was "remarkable".
What motivated you to become an indie author?
Creative freedom. Business managers tend to pigeon-hole creative types and try to guess what's going to be a huge success because they only get a small percentage, so they have to make you be super commercial, and they tell you what to do, when and where to go -- it isn't worth the sacrifices to let others control your life! Since fame and fortune are not the reason I write, there is really nothing I need from a publishing company. I write for catharsis and to say what I have to say to the world, and let the chips fall where they may. You don't find many authors who are willing to be vulnerable and authentic, to help others to find peace and happiness in this cold, dark world! My goal is to write authentically and gradually develop a following of readers who will support me in my old age.
How has Smashwords contributed to your success?
Smashwords gives me total artistic control over my work and allows me to create coupons so that I can give my followers discounts and freebies. Mark Coker is a very nice man and has been personally helpful when I have needed technical support. Smashwords has premium distribution channels with Apple, Barnes & Noble, Sony and many others, so it makes it easy to reach libraries and all the main ebook sites with one upload!
Published 2013-08-24.
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Books by This Author

How to Commit Suicide
Price: $1.29 USD. Words: 3,620. Language: English. Published: August 22, 2013. Category: Nonfiction » Health, wellbeing, & medicine » Mental health
The first time she used the internet was to search for how to do it and make it look accidental. What she found changed her path forever. This short story is offered to de-stigmatize mental illness. If you are experiencing thoughts of suicide, or you know someone who has withdrawn and seems to be in a dark place, read this.