I generally notice things other people overlook. I judge things and people based on these.
Some of these things, others do not notice, are very important to me. They are deciding factor.
Girl should not dare to look at the sky, where King dwells. Girl should grovel on the ground like a lowly mongrel worm she is. Do a dogeza before me, your King, and I might use you for my pleasure. If you are a good obedient girl that is.
People exist to serve and please me, absolutely not the other way around.
I am INTJ-A as well as Libra Sun, Mars and South Node, Cancer Moon, Scorpio Mercury, Venus, Pluto and Immune Coeli(Nadir), Sagittarius Saturn and Uranus, Capricorn Neptune, Aries Jupiter and North Node, Gemini Chiron, Virgo Ascendant, Taurus Midheaven(Zenith) and Pars Fortuna. Aquarius Vortex, Leo Lilith, Pisces Descendant. My final dispositor is Pluto.
I am trying to promote my BDSM book here, which I published as JJ Master
https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/1174760
I also have a blog under one of my pen names
https://jamesayrford.blogspot.com/
Submissive slave females are the only my kind of girls. Only Male Dom and Female subs.
I you want me to like you, caress my ego, do not try to crush it.
Of all the qualities a female can have, I hate pride the most. My mom was prideful and I hate her a lot. I hate any and all proud women, who think highly of themselves for any reason at all.
I like only humble girls, who think lowly of themselves. All waifus in my harem are very humble.
I have allergy on tsunderes, other -deres only please.
I was a misfittiest misfit in Russia, kind of continue to misfit in the West. May be I fit with other misfits? Depend of what kind of misfits they are I guess.
I just do not know the truth. I can only feel/sense it is being kept away from me. However I do not know what it is. I do not know.
However if TrueHellDei enjoys abusing theOrator or someone like him more than serving as my maid, then I do not care for her anymore.
I will find myself a better more obedient submissive maid.
Or so I wish: unfortunately TrueHellDei is hard to replace, as much as I wish for such a replacement to exist. No one is quite as smart and relatable. Intellectual solitude is unsolvable.
Simply obedient girl should be possible to find, but even this is somehow hard.
Was the whole TrueHellDei saga but a hollow shell of that terrible illusion: hope?
Back in the days I too used words to humiliate these other guys who were after TrueHellDei. She was mine and I will not give her away to them or anyone else for that matter. I could say that is what I thought back then, however I did not thought it. I fought instinctively with what was available to me then to kick them away and make her mine.
Nowadays I can retrospect and analyze it all, ponder if I made a some enemies with all that? Perhaps attracted some other females who now want to take her place. In fact nowadays I even question if she was any good at all? Was she worth these efforts. After all she too is very apt at lying.
However I could not think of any of that back in the days, I wanted her and that was all I cared then.
May be TrueHellDei lied to me, but with sincerity. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1cKv5UZdYxc&ab_channel=DepecheMode-Topic However she was impressed with me for real, no matter how hard she denied it, I am just that good.
I think my parents were grooming me for some selfish ends. I am not sure they are even my real parents. I managed to escape them somehow.
My taste in anme is so unusual because I am very smart and intellectual and my world view is unusual as well. I see some of these shows differently from other people.
I like either shows where everything is perfectly idyllic and everyone is very nice GuP, Bofuri, Gochiusa, K-On!, Overlord, some of the isekai.
Shows I want to be in, perhaps. Though that is a little more complex.
Or very dark shows where I can relate to characters and their experiences: Code Geass, Black Lagoon, Elfen Lied, Watamote, Gyakkyou Burai Kaiji. Revolutionary Girl Utena, Jigoku Shoujou
They give me sense that someone understands me and my problems.
Also I like comedies if they can make me laugh, like Gintama, Nichijou and Excel Saga.
I do not like shows where I cannot relate to characters. That have women types I hate. Where they just doing stuff or going wild out of boredom for no reason at all. Ergo Proxy, Neon Genesis Evangelion, Guilty Crown, Samurai Champloo.