Madeleine Watson lives in the UK and writes under a pseudonym.
At the age of 51, she discovered she had been repeatedly raped at the age of 3 by an uncle who shared her toddlerhood home.
During oblivion, she kept a diary, wrote children’s mysteries, novels and short stories. She also went to art school for 5 years. Unbeknown to her, clues to her horrific toddlerhood had seeped into her creations.
How she finally learned the truth is described in her books along with further revelations. Having lived through this experience, she is able to describe what life has been like for someone whose toddlerhood has been brutalised prior to the dawning of her conscious awareness.
When I was 51, a horrific memory came up.
Throughout my life, I blamed my problems on warring parents. Nothing else.
In fact, an uncle lived in my toddlerhood home. My horrific memory was of his stony face seconds before he suffocated me. I was just 3.
I have come to learn my uncle took me out in the pushchair and committed acts of rape on deserted roadsides. This is how I know where he took me.
Between 2011 and 2014, I wrote 8 short stories.
I had been writing stories since I was 6. On the surface, they appear to be about diverse characters: an orphan, an ex-convict and a bully. But underneath, all are about alienation. My children’s mysteries of the Seventies are the same. I hadn’t noticed. Not until I was 51 years old and I discovered something terrible about myself.
This book is about my novel Nadia. I wrote it in 2014. A man is involved in a horrific car crash. The story seemed to bear no relevance to my life at all. But in 2016, I would learn something truly terrible about myself. Clues to this truth have leaked into my novel.
As this is a true story, I have used my diaries as part of this account and illustrations are included.
This book is about my kidnap thriller, The Locked Door.
The idea was confinement.
Why, I didn’t know; I just felt a need to express it.
Naturally, I made it into a kidnap thriller.
During my writing, I connected with this ‘strand’. This strand grew compulsive and creepy. Little did I realize the source of it.
Not until the age of 51 when I learned something truly terrible about myself.
This book is about my novel, North Window.
Being a dark psychological thriller, it seemed to bear no relevance to my life at all.
A year after completing this novel, I learned something truly terrible about myself. Unbeknown to me, clues to this horrific truth had leaked into this novel.
As this is a true story, I have used my diaries as part of this account and illustrations are included.
Hindbury’s Run is an animal story starring sheepdogs who fear a raid on their farm. But this is no ordinary story. A sinister message runs beneath every paragraph. Almost 40 years after the penning, I would discover a horrific truth about myself. This truth has snuck into this and my other children's stories.
At the age of 51, I learned something truly horrific about myself. Throughout my life, I wrote stories, novels, kept a diary and produced artwork, all during oblivion. This book describes the unearthing of sinister messages beneath my children’s stories.
Price:
$3.99 USD.
Words: 129,860.
Language:
English.
Published: December 31, 2018
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Categories:
Nonfiction » Biography » Personal memoir
This book is about my novel, The Lessons.
At the age of nineteen, I made the decision to pen this novel. As soon as I began, an illness cut me down for a week. I thought nothing of it, determined I was going to begin this novel as soon as I felt better. Little did I realise how this novel would affect my life. With illustrations.
This is a true story spanning almost 50 years, fuelled by events that are unique and horrifying. But my incredible story may offer insight on how the mind works under extreme conditions. A page-a-day diary between 1977 and 1988 has been used as part of the account. Certain readers may find some of the content unsettling.