“No Longer Silent” is my life. My emotional battle after incest throughout my childhood. My attempts to run from overwhelming feelings, of guilt, shame, betrayal, physical tension, worthlessness, self-hatred and anger. I lived on the streets where I was further abused by multiple rapes. I turned to alcohol and drugs to numb the pain throughout my teenage-hood and young adult life. When the drugs and alcohol wore off the feelings were there, the questions were there. Why didn’t I tell? Why me? Why can’t I cry? What is wrong with me? I was out of control and destructive. I spent many nights incarcerated even prison.
It was when I went through intense inpatient therapy that I learned how to talk about these feelings. I began to Learn that I had to stop blaming myself. I started to get involved in the church and spirituality. I have overcome the past. Dealing with sexual abuse at any stage in life creates enormous emotional and physical challenges. The good news is that you can overcome these challenges. With professional guidance you can be free of the chains.
I wrote my story in hopes of helping others that are silent. My only regret is that I waited so long. I have forgiven my abusers. I am not telling my story to hurt anyone that was involved in my past. I have learned to love myself completely. I realized that my story needed told, by simply living through what I have is nothing short of a miracle.
One in three women is a victim of sexual abuse before they turn 19. No Longer Silent could be the story of your friend or neighbor, your parent or your lover. No Longer Silent might be your story. No Longer Silent is the life story of Tammy Gagnon.
Tammy left home at 14, fleeing an incestuous childhood. Running from guilt and shame too overwhelming for any little girl, Tammy experienced further