C.Y. Dillon


Carma Yvonne Dillon was born in Los Angeles in 1958. Her family surname was Dillingham until her grandfather moved west, changed his name, and did not inform his wife or children as to why he never spoke of or to his parents or siblings back in Wisconsin. She writes with an attitude of defiance and liberation, while remaining sympathetic to the human condition. She has seven siblings and spent much of her youth growing up in Salt Lake City and the colorful southern region of Utah. She has also spent time in Malott, Washington, as an apple picker... in Dexter, Oregon, as a Bible scholar at Shiloh Youth Revival Centers... has been the lead singer in a hard rock band... has jumped out of an airplane... has experienced the brunt of a combat soldier's PTSD... has pondered the problem of familial suicides... has experienced being a birth mother and later raising a preemie... has survived childhood sexual abuse and date rape... has healed herself... and the adventures continue. She is currently married to the love of her life, her soulmate, and has returned to her hometown in SoCal, where she loves the richness of being amongst people from every continent. She especially loves going to movies, talking about movies and television series, nature photography, writing poetry, and helping her children. She is mother of two and grandmother of three. She also has three cats.

Smashwords Interview

Do you remember the first story you ever wrote?
The first story I ever wrote was about sex. I was 14 and he was twice my age. Only one person was permitted to have a copy of that before I destroyed it: my 9th grade English teacher. I have since written a new short story about Nicholas because I want the world to know that teenagers are children who do not know what is best for them, and adults should not have sex with teens.
What do you think readers should know about your autobiographical ebooks?
Mental illness runs in my family. That sounds funny, but it's no joke, though we are great at using humor to get by! My sense of humor is very warped and on the dark side. I have had homicidal fantasies about people who have hurt me or my children. Of course, I won't act on those urges, but it is interesting to notice the craving for vengeance. I'm a grizzly mama bear!

In 1993 I was diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and have learned a great deal about depression and anxiety since then. My intention is to de-stigmatize mental healthcare and help everyone to realize that reaching for professional help to deal with mood disorders that could cause you to become a danger to yourself or others is no different than seeking help from a doctor for diabetes.

My style is to the point and cathartic. Someone criticized me for writing the story of my rape at age 15 with too much "I... I... I..." and guess what? -- I don't care what that reader thinks. It was done on purpose. The mindset of a 15-year-old girl the day after she was raped is all about "I shouldn't have been so stupid." That's where it was written from, but ultimately the child grows out of that and recognizes the truth: there are human predators.

Nevertheless, my life story ends on a happy note because I am a survivor. It was the family counselor who said it was "remarkable".
Read more of this interview.


Losing Your Religion
Price: $0.99 USD. Words: 7,270. Language: English. Published: April 29, 2017. Categories: Essay » Sociology, Nonfiction » Religion & Spirituality » Religion & Science
How to lose your religion and still keep your cool. Advice on the importance of wisdom, and the author's personal experiences about walking away from the religious life, should help readers answer the many questions that arise when we begin to question the beliefs we were taught as a child.
How to Commit Suicide
Price: $0.99 USD. Words: 3,620. Language: English. Published: August 22, 2013. Categories: Nonfiction » Health, wellbeing, & medicine » Mental health, Nonfiction » Psychology » Depression
The first time she used the internet was to search for how to do it and make it look accidental. What she found changed her path forever. This short story is offered to de-stigmatize mental illness. If you are experiencing thoughts of suicide, or you know someone who has withdrawn and seems to be in a dark place, read this.
Wild Child
Price: $2.99 USD. Words: 19,390. Language: English. Published: August 11, 2012. Categories: Screenplays » Romance, Fiction » Romance » Contemporary
An original screenplay, "Wild Child" is the story of a highly successful, intensely creative woman whose life is turned inside-out by the polarizing forces of love vs. biological urges.
Love of Her Life
Price: $1.99 USD. Words: 17,490. Language: English. Published: August 11, 2012. Categories: Fiction » Romance » Contemporary, Screenplays » Romance
Harmony expects to meet the love of her life on a Mississippi riverboat cruise. She is all in for the adventure of a lifetime. Where's her soulmate?
A Temporary Sanity
Price: $2.99 USD. Words: 17,650. Language: English. Published: May 7, 2012. Categories: Fiction » Women's fiction » General, Screenplays » Drama
An original screenplay, "A Temporary Sanity" is the story of a woman's gradual realization that the godly man she thought she married is a sociopath, her desperate flight and fight for sanity, and reinventing herself through performance art. Written for mature audiences and readers, some of the moments contained in this story may be very disturbing, and some were inspired by real events.
LSD and Me
Price: $0.99 USD. Words: 3,160. Language: English. Published: April 6, 2012. Categories: Nonfiction » Parenting » Teens, Nonfiction » Education & Study Guides » Counseling / career development
Many parents worry about their teens getting seduced by drug users who want to pay for their habit by dealing small quantities. It's a common social concern. The author offers this short segment of her memoirs separately to inform curious teens that LSD and other drugs are not all their hyped up to be, and that creativity is not dependent on drugs, but can actually be ruined by drugs.
Memoirs of a Remarkable Survivor
Price: $4.99 $2.99 USD. (40% off until Dec. 31!) Words: 34,990. Language: English. Published: March 23, 2012. Categories: Nonfiction » Biography » Autobiographies & Memoirs, Nonfiction » Psychology » Mental health
This book is dedicated to anyone who has earned their diploma from the University of Hard Knocks! Be thankful for your own resilience--not everyone can take a beating and stand up. In 1993, a family counselor told the author it was remarkable that she had not attempted suicide. "You haven't even heard half of it!" Today, the author's life is full of love, peace, joy and harmony. Here is light.