Growing up as Ken was never a easy thing to do, he always had trouble making friends since he was more of a shy person than anything. As time past and he got into high school he began to get bullied and harassed.
Becoming a poet wasn't Ken's first choice for what he wanted to do in life, as his choices tend to revolve around failure.. He first started out wanting to be a Sports Broadcaster, but he later gave up on that dream when more and more he was bullied because of his speech impediment.
Which lead him to writing poetry to vent his frustrations and have his own personal outlet from the world that surrounds him, when he first started to write poetry he wrote it on a very old computer while everyone was in bed Kennie would wake up during the night and sit down at his computer and type up his thoughts and feelings for only his eyes to see, often letting out some of his deepest feelings of how he felt the world had seen him.
High School got progressively worse, to the point of him dropping out. His home life was never anything great either he never got along with either of his parents or any of his siblings.
In October 2005 just a few days after his birthday he began to talk to whom would later become his fiancee which as you could imagine brought much joy to Ken's life, but in December of that year it brought pain as his father was killed in a car accident.
Through many of his life's trials and tribulations he continues to write.
Ken started to write while he was in high school, one of his "famous" peices of writing came that he wrote as a class assignment, he was told "write about something that happens every day" so he did, he wrote how every day from the moment he got on the bus in the morning to the time he got off the bus in the evening he was constantly bullied and harassed... But things actually got worse after that, he was labeled a "psycho" as his teacher proceeded to read it out loud to the class which put Kennie in a dark place, which is where he started to listen to music such as Insane Clown Posse and Marilyn Manson, he listened to them to escape from the shit that was happening in his life.. The music was an acceptance it wasn't putting him down or treating him like shit like the rest of the world was.
Back in 1999 he dropped out of high school due to bullying and harassment that got to the point of him saying "it's either me leaving this place, or I'm not going to live to see me finish high school"
When he dropped out his home life wasn't the greatest, he rarely did see eye to eye with either of his parents and for the most part growing up he didn't really have any friends, the odd friend would come into his life but rarely did they stick around.
In late 2002 he founded Ken Squires Publishing to continue to pursue writing, being told by numerous other poets "there is no money in poetry" when he started to write his stuff would be dark and morbid, between the music he listened to and horror movies he watched it's what he felt most comfortable with...
He continued to write this way, in October of 2005 he started to talk to a girl on myspace that girl was Crystal (his fiancee) they began dating later that month.
In 2012/2013 he decided that things needed to change for him and his writing style as he was in a better place now. So he put out one big release called "End Of Poe-Hatery" to signify that part of his life is over, it's time to bury the darken past and move on...
In October 2017 him and his fiancee split, it wasn't easy on Ken in anyway and it affected him in many ways.
He's been rolling solo since then, trying to figure out what this life has in store for him as he continues to write through the ups and downs of his life.
Toxic People, Toxic Relationships, Toxic Living Arrangements, Toxic Friends ? ... We've all had them in our lives to some extent in this book of poetry Ken writes his tales exploring those exact subjects.
Side Effects Of Being Me
Are included but not limited to
- Sadness & Depression
- Feeling Worthless
- Self Hatred
- Feeling Unwanted
- Being stuck around toxic people
- The feeling of being helpless
Currently we have no cure for these as your life will continue to get shittier as it goes on.
This ebook was written while Ken was struggling with the idea of should he continue to write or should he walk away from it, as you can tell his decision from his final prose in the ebook.
Been writing for a hell of a long time and with over 190 releases to date, the passion faded, it's time for him to find something else to fill his time with.
At A Snails Pace brings you closer to Ken than ever as he tackles such topics as:
Online Dating (How Do You Tell Me I'm Fake)
He revisits an old poem (I Remember those feelings)
Perfection not existing (Picture Perfect)
Poking fun at himself (I'm Stupid)
Being tired of being that guy (I'm Tired)
As well as many other subjects as he tries his best to navigate his way through this thing called life
In this collection of poetry Ken reveals the current tales going on in his life, such subjects include
- Being alone
- Having Nobody To Talk To
- Wondering If He's Going To Survive These Uncertain Times(mentally)
- Females (having problems with them)
- Fake People
Plus many more subjects
While Ken continues to struggle through life and going through many ups and downs during the pandemic he continues to write about them including the times that he's put himself out there in hopes of helping friends and in the search to find someone to date. These are those tales
No end in sight, searching for someone to spend his life with Ken joins dating apps during these Covid times. While he has high hopes at the start of it, the feeling of "Almost too good to be true" washes over him as time continues on. In this release he writes about his misfortunes during these dating apps and how people have certainly changed and not for the better.
Being trapped on this planet has it's upsides and it's downsides as I've spent thirty eight earth years on this planet, sending transmissions back to my home planet now I want to go home things are certainly getting out of control.
Going through a bunch of my old stuff I came across another book with some old writing, I had an idea to create the persona of a backwoods poet who went by the name Pitch 4k (Pronounced: Pitch Fork). This short release has never seen the light of day until now.
As of late Ken has been searching for a new path, he's been single for three years his ex finally moved out and the trials and tribulations that ran with her moving out. At the same time Ken decided to attempt to get back into dating. Yes it's an attempt as dating has never been an easy thing for him. You can read his lyrical masterpieces in this release.
RAP - Rhyme And Poetry: As my poetry has progressively increased over time in various ways not just the ability to tell a story or let out emotion. But also the rhyme portion of it, it seems that what I write has even turned rather lyrical. The subjects I approach in this latest ebook vary from love to wanting to better ones self so I can be the best me I can be and everything in between.
We all have had friends that we thought were going to be in our lives forever. That's the way they talked and we believed them, but when you question someones reasoning for doing something and they vanish from your life seconds after that it makes you realize just how fake they were and how much jibber jabber (mouth diarrhea) they were talking.
As many of us poets have the habit of doing, at times we write when we're not near a computer so things go into books. The books get put aside and often forgotten about. Recently I've been going through many things and I came across a small amount of poems that have not been released so I decided to do so in this ebook, so you can read some unreleased work of mine.
Changing up his own style of poetry from just free verse to rhyming free verse in this release Ken tackles many subjects from:
Trouble With Women
Feelings For Women who don't have the same feelings in return
In this book of poetry, you can read a first hand look how even though it's a new year, things aren't looking much different in Ken's life. He continues to document various things through his life and finishes the book with a powerful valentine's day poem "just another day when nobody wants me" showcasing the way that women have always looked at him all his life.
Started a new job in October, first few days seemed fine but the stress quickly got to Ken. His happiness quickly turned to anger, tears and hate. He decided to write / document everything that he went through during his struggles up until early December. These are his stories.
Life has a way of not always being straight forward, somethings that happen are good and along with the good somethings are bad.
In mid October after a very long job search and many interviews, Ken finally landed himself a job. These are the behind the scenes tales that took place, an intimate look into Ken's life and how the job and his life affected him from day to day.
Birthdays are suppose to be a day filled of joy and happiness, but on this birthday things took a turn for the worse. Trying to enjoy a quiet birthday with people close to him. Others tried to give him a hard time about it, until they pushed him over the edge.
In this book of poems you can explore the inner most private thoughts of Ken which include subjects like:
- complaints towards his life
- fake friends / actresses
- trying to fix himself
- losing friends
Many people at some point question there mental thoughts, as it seems to be a hot topic whenever something bad happens. Recently I have gone through some rather dark times in my life and some rather depressive times as well. I was borderline going to see a psychiatrist at this time in my life I chose to write about them for everyone to read.
Friendship always has various levels in it and when I start letting you more into my head and telling you when I feel down and other personal things that's when I trust you more than anything else. However some people can't seem to handle it and turn into school children and reporting my sadness to other people. That is how you lose my trust and will never be looked at as the same again.
Feeling at an all time low, being forced into a position that Ken doesn't want. Feeling abandoned by his friends he turns to the only thing that seems to give him comfort in life and that's his writing, Read his journey.
The Way I Feel, is a collection of poetry by Ken Squires in which he poetically documents what he's going through in life. He bleeds from his heart through the pen to the page that allow you to read many emotions including him losing friends over his writing in this release.
The emotion is raw and uncensored as he lets it all out.
Just like every peice of poetry that Ken writes these are definately no exception as they are balanced mix of inspired by hip hop as well as things going on in the world or his every day life.
He also touches on the double standard of women having the ability to talk about body parts on men, but if a man does it it's wrong
He also touches upon the fires in Notre Dame in "Fires Of Hell"
When poet Ken Squires goes to express himself in with anything that comes to mind you will encounter a man who is brilliant, intimidating as well as a man who knows what he likes, dislikes and what he wants. You may stand on the same side as Ken when it comes to certain subjects or you may push back against him during others. It will only take a bit before he plunges in deep and fill your mind wit
Originally started to write to release anger and frustration his first piece of poetry was released while he was still in high school which actually got him sent to the school's psychiatrist. Clearly that didn't stop him as he later dropped out of high school in 1999 and has been writing and posting on various sites ever since. In this release you get to see the continued evolution.
Spending more time on this planet called Earth, I felt like more things had to be probed. So just like the anus' that your sitting on that for some reason someone named a planet after.. Prepare to get probed
I went to visit my Aunt's in Cambridge for five days, I decided each night I would document the day that just passed. Here are my short stories that revolve around that visit as well as some back stories into certain other subjects which may help explain why I react the way I did in certain situations
Everyone has thoughts, at times we all have thoughts that replicate a busy highway.. Thoughts coming from all directions and going all directions about everything not just one track.. This is me documenting some of those thoughts
Love makes people do at times crazy and stupid things, at times you put yourself 110% into a relationship and you don't always get 100% back. You feel like the other person doesn't seem to be into it and just don't care about you the way you care about them. These are my poetic stories about the same situation
Some people find it easy making friends, other people like myself have a difficult time talking to people as well as developing new friendships as well as maintaining old friendships. These are two short stories coming directly from me about my troubles in that area.
Many things that go on in life make us scream, then there are just as many things if not more that make us scream internally as we hold it in because we don't want others to hear those screams. This poetry are the results of internal screams
Going through life's troubles Ken gives a glimpse into the darker side of his brain. Staying true to Canadian Poetry as well as touching on various darker subjects including the final piece which is rather lyrical called "Story Of A Bitch"
Tired of putting people ahead of himself it's time for a change in his life and this change shows that Ken Over Everybody where he begins to put himself first and ignores others who have ignored himself.
Smeared Thoughts brings you thoughts from Ken just like any other release. But knowing that a day to day life (or a non existent life like his) can cause foggy thoughts and can easily smear your thoughts in all different ways and shows how normal it is for one to go through a wide range of thoughts and emotions while navigating the trials and tribulations of this thing we call life.
The theater inside my mind changes up everyday, one just doesn't know what exactly is playing inside my mind, is it going to be an all day show it will it change up through the day.
Touching on emotions such as Fear and Disgust
Speaking about his addiction to writing in: My Drug
It also includes the hit "Why ?" where he starts questioning many things.