Enn Kae

Well, I grew up in many places and moved around a lot. I was born in Lancashire, in an industrial town, in England's north-west. It was okay but, looking back, it was a real gift that my parents moved to Dundee, Scotland when I was 11 as I firmly believe my life would have taken a drastically different path. When I was a student at Dundee University I had an opportunity to study in Illinois, America for a year. That really opened my eyes to the world. I always knew I would leave the UK but, back then, I was 18 and I never wanted to go back to Scotland. I hated having to go back but I had to finish my Masters. After getting my Masters, at 21, I moved to London and started working there and I actually ended up in Watford for 3 years and there began a very dark period in my life. I mean, I'm only 37 but I really feel I've been through the mill, so to speak, several times. After London, I ended up in Manchester for about 8 years and then I moved back to London to work for 2 before finally leaving England, at the end of the summer in 2012. So, really, all this movement and change and not feeling a part of anything has really informed my writing. I am an observer, first, and a participant, second.

Another thing which is very important to me as a writer is that I was ALWAYS at the margins. I never fit into any group, whether as a child, teenager or as a young adult. I think really, when you are in that position and when it becomes such a pervasive element of your being, you begin to see the world a lot differently than most. I suppose we all do to some extent but I never got the herd mentality. I never belonged to a crowd and, though I tried my best to, I was never really good at it. I always felt like an impostor or a phony. I suppose that my vantage point has really been my greatest asset and influence in my writing. One of the reasons I left England was because the 'matrix of control', so to speak, was (in my opinion) getting to a critical mass. When you are constantly at the periphery you can only survive as an observer and, as an observer, you really see how manipulated the masses are. Again, it probably happens a lot everywhere though where I live now - in The Netherlands - it's not as apparent to me. That's probably due to the language so I'm not experiencing 'the matrix' to the same extent but I have also observed that the sort of 'matrix of control' vis-a-vis the media isn't as heavy or strong as it is in the UK.

Well, I grew up in many places and moved around a lot. I was born in Lancashire, in an industrial town, in England's north-west. It was okay but, looking back, it was a real gift that my parents moved to Dundee, Scotland when I was 11 as I firmly believe my life would have taken a drastically different path. When I was a student at Dundee University I had an opportunity to study in Illinois, America for a year. That really opened my eyes to the world. I always knew I would leave the UK but, back then, I was 18 and I never wanted to go back to Scotland. I hated having to go back but I had to finish my Masters. After getting my Masters, at 21, I moved to London and started working there and I actually ended up in Watford for 3 years and there began a very dark period in my life. I mean, I'm only 37 but I really feel I've been through the mill, so to speak, several times. After London, I ended up in Manchester for about 8 years and then I moved back to London to work for 2 before finally leaving England, at the end of the summer in 2012. So, really, all this movement and change and not feeling a part of anything has really informed my writing. I am an observer, first, and a participant, second.

Another thing which is very important to me as a writer is that I was ALWAYS at the margins. I never fit into any group, whether as a child, teenager or as a young adult. I think really, when you are in that position and when it becomes such a pervasive element of your being, you begin to see the world a lot differently than most. I suppose we all do to some extent but I never got the herd mentality. I never belonged to a crowd and, though I tried my best to, I was never really good at it. I always felt like an impostor or a phony. I suppose that my vantage point has really been my greatest asset and influence in my writing. One of the reasons I left England was because the 'matrix of control', so to speak, was (in my opinion) getting to a critical mass. When you are constantly at the periphery you can only survive as an observer and, as an observer, you really see how manipulated the masses are. Again, it probably happens a lot everywhere though where I live now - in The Netherlands - it's not as apparent to me. That's probably due to the language so I'm not experiencing 'the matrix' to the same extent.