Poetry

Have you ever struggled with faith? Have you ever had difficulty believing what you've been told all of your life? Do you feel that you cannot talk to friends and family about doubts, concerns, and questions because they will not understand and will judge and condemn you? I constantly feel like I'm bombarded with the messages of others and their demands that I believe what they believe.

Warning: some adult content. Some of this might shock you from what you'll read here. I won't cry I know why Cuz I don't give a flying... Or a sack of nuts About what the ... she's doin Or about who the ... she's screwin

I would move a mountain To heal your pain. I would take it all And not complain If it could be in that bed, So torn and afraid. We share someone, The one that took your name And gave me life. She’s my mother. She’s your wife. You don’t deserve this at all, And it’s not alright.

It's far too hard to let go of it all, all of the endlessly-flowing memories of what once was. I do so Hope you know about all the misery and pain The memorial stains, the rage and restraint The rest of your remains You'll be gone for all of time, But I'll remember your name

Do you ever feel like just giving up? Do you ever wonder if you're just not good enough, like maybe, you don't fit in and can't be what's expected of you? We've all been there. You're never alone in such feelings. The key is to not give up and not give in, to try, no matter how hard it is and how difficult the fight is. It's ok to feel left out and washed up.

My mind is more than I have left. I’m not alright, But I’m okay. You’re gonna leave me alone, Anyway.

When did it start? It’s already gone. Why did I cry? I’ve already been away so long. How did I get to this, To miss this thing, to be more Than a bit unseen, obscene, unclean, unloved, Under things that eat my soul Like a big, black bug. I’m undone. I’m already over, but I’m under, And I’m not the only one.

I want to see The face That lights a thousand nights That kiss That I can't live without Because I might Miss you so much That my life is emptiness I miss Every little thing That you've brought in to pull me out Of the hole my whole world has been If I could see you again

Leave me as you met me... So lonely and scared. Please forget me... Very cold and gray. I can still see you And hear the words you tried to say. You called me by name And faded away... But all I did Was come to watch you play... Come out to watch you play... Come back down and don't be afraid... It'll all be over in an instant...

I know. I know. I know. You just had to go I'm not glad you went But with all those crazy nights I'm so glad you came When you wake up In the dead of night Feeling so empty And full of fright Remember who still loved you And if you had He just might

But when you’re inside me, I’m dying From how you push through me, Too much inviting, no denying, I’ve given up On becoming More than enough For more than I have. I’m yours and all you’ll need now. Your fingers, lingering, Touching on me, squeezing, Freezing me up. Your lips on mine, moving down to my cup That runs over; you run over, Softly too much.

It all falls down Heaven ain't just in the sky Your pot of gold Might not be Where you were told It might be in my eyes

How can Any of this be I thought you were All I needed I thought You were it for me! But you turned into Something I can't believe And I would give anything And everything For you to just F'n leave!

The title says all that I can say. Anything else is apparently too explicit.

I can't go on any longer Without making amends. Are we still lovers, Or are we just friends? ------------ I apologize. I know that I've been wrong. If you could see my eyes, Would you see That our love will go on? ------------- It's all waiting for us. It's known to someone else. We might not know it ourselves, But it will all come to be. It will be me living for you... With you...

Sometimes, I.... Can't let myself trust No one's ever been true So I know that I must Believe in it all Believing in you Or nothing makes any sense So can I let go And let you in

Surrounded by guilt For the bad things I've done There were so many walls That I had to build For you to tear down Turn around and then run

Life goes on And on Til it's all drawn to a close It stretches so far That nobody knows Until it's gone If I could make amends For the things that I've done Maybe we could be friends And I could think of my regrets And have none

This is all like some movie, Except nobody I know ever gets rich. They just deal with a lot of shit. All the liars, thieves, and hypocrites Take everything away, Or at least, most of it.

This was written a long time ago, when someone offered to “pay me” for lyrics. I never finished this, for a list of reasons. I thought that someone might get a good laugh at my expense. I ain't been to em all But I been to one One time I was lonely And needed affection She had me tied up Gave me erections What a selection Of kinky thangs Had Mr. Winky movin like a slinky With whips and chains

My mouth sewn shut My eyes will bleed No way to be whole Though I feel the need Rotting through a body of flesh, Infecting me with wounds so fresh Dead to my core, Hoping to be But still living no more

I could be the one to cherish you To always let you know I'm there for you To be the rock to hold you up When you feel like you'll fall If you're not afraid you'll fail You might find Heaven in your Hell In these arms that'd carry you If you think you've lost it all

Imagine the wildest woman possible, a real dream come true, rocking your world every chance that she gets.

One day we may Work it all out Leave out the doubt Say face to face All these things We say So constantly Wishin that we Could make the miles disappear

Every day is a brand new day of almost hate I’m losing my grip on every sense I can’t even say (What it was that made you go away How I would ever bring you back from where you went Give you back all the time you spent Trying to convince a man of his worsening ways I owe you far more than I could repay The only thing holding me down Giving me gravity to stay on the ground Is hoping you might be ok